tuesday's, friday's and saturday's

end of holidays, suck it. dont want to hear the word school/homeworks/teachers. overall it was ok. nothing much, just more laughing gas in class. even the dm's can make us laugh with his effortless words. monday schedule as per normal. still, home at four. can you imagine? 8am - 4pm, its only that i dont sleep,eat,shit in school. ive decided to work. because thats the only thing i can do other than cycling not very far, or sleep like a pig. might as well do something. tuesday's, friday's and saturday's. and so my life is going to change. i work, not the cause of family problems of money shortage, no. its just that i founf something to pour all my boredom hours left with studying after that. soon, ill not be free as always. and im sure ill miss more people.

nadiah's such places.

so ystd there'll be a party at three. damn, i havent finish my holidays assignment. when will i get to finish it? i feel dumb and numb everytime i see my assignment paper. im not in the right atmosphere to do it. haha. the party was ok? hahha, i got no mood for the lunch they prepared so i didnt ate them when i actually should. cos on th way home along taking 154 while reading my favourite book, i felt like i need a plastic bag to vomit. but i hold them down on my throat. today, the first morning, i texted fred. and slept back, then woke up, i cant talk. theres like flam in my throat? ahaha, then i have to swallow many many saliva just to talk. i cant believe i slept with a light pink mango tee. hahaha. nadiah nadiah.

eventually, fred wasnt his real name,
but it sounded better if fred was his real name.

all black buddy, k.

met k today, since he cant come here, why not i come to his place kan? i went to admiralty. left house at like 3.30 plus. i was wearing something real plain, long sleeves black strechable tee. cos it was raining and drizzling. im nearly finishing my book, the one im reading now. maybe im going to buy more books after finishing reading that one. i find it addictive. ate dinner with k. haha, it was my treat. baik kan? world seem so fine alahai, i like. then went home. reach about 8.15pm. then at 9pm went out again. haha then back at home at 9.30pm. so much of going out even its near. maybe i find it suffocating staying at home, the air didnt circulate with the fresher ones. and so my pussycat is sleeping inside my wardrobe, buat ape kan. cold agaknye. gonna have crew party tmr at king albert tmr. whohhhooooo~

decease of the young love, died in a tragic argument.

Feat. Dewey(?/!/.)

i bought the book that i wanted alr, its been a week its been with me and im reading it. another half to go. reading that book dont make me feel such a burden to read alot, i mean i cant believe it its even half. its so touching at certain parts. its just vicki myron stories that made me continue reading. went to work today and end at 1, then went home straight because my family is going karaoke. ahhhaa. its been a year since we didnt karaoke. its opposite hard rock cafe sg. every one get to sing at least like 5 songs? hahaha. i feel that i didnt get to choose my right song, when then last 5 minutes, i found stratovarious - black diamond. hahha. like my turn like that. cant sing well, cehhhhhhh, because the air con is too cool(?) ahahaha, so the not the correct word. i mean not appropriate. if the sun is smiling tmr, im gonna cycle again. same destination. jurong to alexandra alone. i better not tell anyone.

its my little(?) secret!

it was hard to let you go but i did.

i remember those times we had. i was foolish, very. typing all these may seem like one no big deal, but it is actually in fact. a problem shared is a problem halved right? after unsatisfaction(?) takes place when leaving you, i take control then you make it right. then i never see you again. it seems that every little things i do had to do something, making me remember you. and i always had. i hope youre happy now, with whatever you had. i want to say thanks to you, you gave me the guts to have faith in whatever i do. and i overcome it now, i feel very good after years of waiting for it to be demolished from. its just that it comes out more earlier now. because my friends started having them and it reminds me of myself during those days, trying on products to clear it, and now i did.

ive started writing(typing) paragraphs of my life by chapters. mostly it was saved as notes but when im typing my last touch ups for it to be saved, i pressed the red button. like damn. its been more then 2 times it happen, and every time i try to avoid it i cant. maybe i should start writing on papers. i hate it alot because i think, what i wrote is so good that i just unsaved them like that. such a waste of effort. those were like the best paragraphs of my life. and i decide to write on paper can make a big difference.

and Elton john turns 60 alr and he still sings. im into his tribute song to john Lennon a the beetles member, who died in an obsessed fan in front of his new york city apartment on December 8, 1980. Lennon and John were good friends.

ive been reminding people to have a great day and be happy because i am.

miss you(?)

drag me to hell ystd. its was fun. freaky granny kept popping out. hahaha. theres a some sort of scary movie comming, orphan? smth like that. hahha. got to go work today. i wish the holiday would expand another week, due to swine flu and my incomplete homeworks. haha.

crayons, color pencils

remember sesame street? that was mostly what i watch during those days before i went to school at 12.30pm. i still remember what inspired me to love art. on how crayons is made. watch is old video. it may be old, but it brong back those memories. alahai~

and see how faber castel is made, enjoy!

spoiled, condamned.

i dont know wheres all my wrongs and rights. not been thinking about this lately until one day. that one day. i dont even get it. im repeating the same thing again and again, not being able to change it, or even rotate it abit. im horrible, i know. hopeless, fat, ugly i know it all.

im trying to stop the habits. trying to look back at those sins ive made, its heavy. behind you, me, them, they. i dont know. what am i doing. i cant even catch up with my school work. and when i encounter a problem, i leave it, never be able to face it. i think im sick.

those who had a taste of me. thats not who i am, i just cant stop being someone who im not. im even getting used to it. wheres all those nadiah went? its hard. its just that im spoiled, totally.

1pm - 8pm

i think im getting used to the tiredness of working. checked schedule today. they told me im working from 2pm till 10pm tmr, but thank god not closing. then on sunday 8am till 4.30pm. pussycat is feeling better. (: im eating my legendary biscuit, biscuit marie. still the best one ever. had an off day on wed. went out with K (who is not my dad okay?). look on the bright side, life is nice. so welcome to my paradise. k looked so bulat from far. hahaha. k is always trying to be cute. im suppose to call k but why not talk about k here. hahaha. k ohh k ^^

pussycat dont like her stitch

fat girls just wanna have fun, they dont really care dont they? i mean i dont too. haha. so, went to get my typhoid injection today and then went to work. from 10am - 2pm. followed by a free fillet burger and small milo before going home. it wasnt so troublesome as i thought, because ive done that at home. eh, what you see on top is like nadiah d. d for duyung, uuugh. tmr, got art thinggy till 1.30pm then give myself a good rest before going to work at three.

2nd june 09: 8am - 9pm } school + work