bad

im getting worse. im back to old. that black memories comming back.

im lazy to go to school. i want to get myself admitted to the hospital.

now i know, humor is the thing that sticks friend to me. not myself.

i want to delete blog. im bored. i dont even know what to do with the internet.

now, ill just update blog with just 4 lines. its easy to read and understand anw.

stomach cramp, flu.

ohhh love, i love you so much.

do you love me?

do you remember how many times ive been scratched?

do you remember who bathed you?

do you love me kitty? hahaha.

i take good precaution but im still hurt

looking at my family happiness graph, its going up and down, i dont feel right. ill be going to school tmr, like normal school days do. i miss school even theres lots lots of assignments to do. at home is just a bore. i ate dinner with kak zi, firda and wai mun and om nad hahaha.oh yeah guess what. when i was typing this, my dad came over and take a look at th compuper screen. i wonder if he saw that. if he did. my blog url will be changed if needed. haha. as i was saying. i ate dinner at kfc. hahaha. we had a chinese eating with us. hahaha. she so cute.
do you like to be pointed at? blamed for something that you didnt do? all the reason why because of a cause?
im not mad, no im not. was it all a misunderstanding? jealousy? am i lack of understanding that i need to understand?

oh yes it was, humor and sincerity.

berak cair

had a strange day on friday. nothing much. i had flag day today. its supposed to be at jp but i went to a market in jurong west which i feel much better. its a hot day. i talked to fit justnow. hahaa apr je. life is a bore. family is getting worse.and studies too.

teachers day

hehe, ive got 3rd in the teachers day poem thingg. thats random when i was in secondary one, they didnt give me chances when i was in secondary two. i couldnt be falling for anyone right? i mean how can i? ive lost trust in men, somehow didnt believe that young love last and worse, close my doors to love. oh anw, that two missing chocolate my siblings took them without my permission. when i asked my little sister wheres the another chocolate, she smiled with melted chocolate on her teeth. so i guess its pretty obvious where the chocolate goes to.

i thought of giving myself a break, giving myself a therapy = shopping. i dont like completing the square, math.

when im sad i eat. then ill wonder what youd think of me.
when im hyper,it means im happy, dont you destroy that happy thingg in me.
i always want to, but i never did.
to ask you a question, "what do you think of me"

all i think you would answer is, "youre ugly"
now that thing sticks to me. like plaque, i do see it.
humor is the reason why friends like me.
without it they'll leave me.