Todays day was a tiring day especially in school.
in school i have to hear " SHARAHAN " from miss chan..
all the words she talked it makes my eardrum fall of my ear..
but no doubt still going to JLP
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I love my ***** ( * toot * )
he is the only one who can understand me...
today not much to talk but im not gonna give up on chasing my studies in school
sorry you all if i write very short coze my dae was a very boring day....
i appologise for this AGAIN.
sorry a thousand times...
......so i talk to somebody that i ment to be in my life....
cause i wrote a ransom letter....

Yesterday...
was assembly and the r assembly was intersting..
it was entitled " Am I in love ? "
First i felt that this have something to do with most of us there..
when i see the actress acting on the middle part of the story my eyes went watery
cause it reflect on my p5 in class .

last year i wrote love poems that i thought to make this person realise that i love him for 2 years.
he threw away the paper. he don't appriciate my poems.
i get embrassed by most of my friend then i tried to stop it but it kept
stepping on my head
i got this SHY vyrus to him only..
when he was sitting beside me i tried to concentrate on wat im doing but i failed
he went away.
this was the experience..
i like him soo much until i have band 4344 on my studies that made me realise
how much i have been wanting him...

now i found one that i really need but
the man that i admires the most could'nt get out of my mind easily
im trying ti forget him but he stays in my mind...

I failed to get you should I let you enter
my heart again ?
It was unbeliveable.

Yesterday was such a damn boring day.
even though i went to town it was still a damn boring day.
my hubby went on holiday to malaysia. even he was on overseas he do sms amd called me .
i wonder if he cares about me . i think so cause he called me he dosent care how much he has to pay cause he cares about me.
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he understand my feelings and most of all he ***** me.
im konw in the world of lonelyness .
he the one that i wished for .everytime when i went to sleep i cannot sleep
and i linger what he was doing right now.
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A classmate you were once.
Then a gentle look at your face
As our lives engaged,
You lit my life and I allways be happy.

You're my man my mighty king,
And I'm the jewel in the crown,
You're the sun so hot and bright,
With your light reys shining down.

You're the sky and your favourite coloue is blue,
And I'm the white clouds in your chest,
I'm the rivr clean and pure.
Unlike the rest with the brownish dirty colour.

You're th mountain huge and high,
And I wrote your name in the sky,
But the wind blew it away.
I wrote your mane in the sand,
But the waves washes it away.
I wrote your name in my heart ,
It will forever stay.

continuing

todae again was a bad dae coze i slam my own lovely handphone on the wall until it break.
telling me don't noe wat to do.
i told him that if i see this again i'll kill myself or wart u always say,
commisuicide.
he told he that if i runnaway he'll come with me
and if i'm alone he'll be with me.
he told me things .
he told me not to go away and leave him alone.
he told me do not commisuicide as he'll miss me .If
i go and die he also followed me everywhere i go
he'll come with me it seems to make me think twice
and he said " U jgn tinggal kn i nnti mlm i tk leh tido everydae I meraung psl kehilangan u ."
that made me realise how important am i to him.
thinking twice ,
not to commisuicide.
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Its my dae..

I love my dae..
todae my....that one rite .
i talk to my ( her**) we talk to each other ...veddy long time
we talk together like half an hour.
we told each other things that i have experience and what i have not
experience he knew that im a p6 and he knew what i felt and ....
to many still im gonna talk about him .
he made me happy at the end of the day.
he mademe laugh everyday
all i need is him no body else..
a tight relationship.
not to let you go
remember you said it to me i want to live and die together with you.
i count on you.
your the only one .
when i'm bored i will call you.
don stop talking to me coz i'll not sleep im the night.
i dream about you every single night
"WITHOUT YOU I'M NOT BE ABLE TO BREATHE LIKE A NORMAL PERSON AGAIN , LIKE I ALWAYS DO."

What the hell.

Todae after school i decided to meet someone whom is a stranger.
I and my friends went to Jurong East Library to see ther image..of ther face ( her/his? )
he / she called me and tell me tjhat he/ she allready there that person is from sengkang
feeling very fishy but i have no prove to tell.
he/she was late then i became angry!
that person havent top up his prepaid card and i need to wait and what the hell
he told me that he went to JEL .adn he said that he wore a brown jacket but when i tarwaf one whole library "lobang hidong dier i " cannort see so u noe what the hell!
but still i have to wait...
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i realise that u made me angry but i still don care
u made my blood went up but i still don care..
u don wan to meet me and i still again DON CARE!!!
if one dae i realise that one day u need me
than it depends on what your mouth is gonna say to me !
if the words make me happy ..
on that dae than i have no choice to think twice.
and see what what is my decision.
if you don care about me than GET LOST
and i suppose to leave you......
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Good bye my lover ,
Good bye my friend,
I'll be the one...
I'll be the one for you.......
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felling lonely at night..
nobody is here.
feeling alittle furry
feeling scared..
and i checked it out
it was my cat
( black mother )
she's cute little kittie ...
still i need you by my side
your the one..
( my ****** )

Why?

todae day, was a tiring dae is actually ...
my friend went to nur hanisah's house to do our project her house was big and got a lot of free space .it was fun there wif her mother...
her mother did'nt say anything..
.......... ( ther boring part...)
at 3:30 we went have to go home .
saying good bie then i realise that my left leg socks was missing searching and searching then
seeing that i saw another lonely socks without a partner..
making fool of my self infront of everybody...( so paisey...)
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I started to realise that i have missed somebody ...
im just waiting for her* to call just to say I ........( censored)
not telling my friends .....that im feeling unhappi..
abt one person coze later...my friend say "lol u horgh...u this ,that.."
blag blag blah ( pet potting)
not closing their mouth....
that is not the one i wished for...
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then at 6pm i with my friend went to J.L.P. ( Jurong Lake Park)
it was fun as 70% of the people there were watching us playing ther '' CIRCUMFERENCE''
we called that circumference coze it was made from a circle...
then my wish come true ...
somebody call me and that was my ___ ( censored )
im verry happy as i can hear her* voice again without
*HER* voice i' cant live ani longer *SHE'S*
the one i always need for everything..
okokokok lar
he made me happy
he made my dae'
he made me smile
and forever i stay...