1 week mc

So theres a problem in blogger and soso. ive been strong for too long, strong from all those sickness. but now im weak. i could even cry anytime i want. i have to endure the pain before the fever like. my immune system kept fighting fever then lose. fever won, and it hurts. hurts so much, i cant breathe. one moment i felt like my heartbeat was too fast. one night, i had back pain, my only ear hurts as if my head is gonna blow. i cant sleep. every 30 minutes after i slept, i'll wake up. and i'll feel restless. my thigh hurts and so i walk like as if im 49 years old. i can even feel that my bones are gonna crack if i never take good care of them.

the next day i went to the doctor. it was the doctor who remembered me. i used to come to that clinic when im having asthma. its been 5,6 years i never went to oriental family clinic. paid my medicine and went to grandmas house. i received pills coloured in pink and yellow. sizes range from xs, s, m, l. i got to have so much rest, cos this pain is hurting me.

did 2.4 km run retest. results, passed.

Tuesday.

i lost my way to mac tj, with 98 on tuesday.
i want new tyres for my bike. i dont care!
dad bought himself (&us) a new car. my dad is crazy.
my mom is crazy abt the car and smth else.
i want new school bag, please.
i want a new book at popular bookstore.

you drove me to my religious class since 8 years old and till now still, driving me there, and drive me home. at that time, i knewure the best. when i was 9 you started paking me food to school. sometimes i didnt even eat it cause im ashamed of doing it infront of my friends. when i was 10 i had a parents meeting session. i was ashamed too. cause of what youre wearing. then all the years passed. imagine, all the best days, best birthdays of mine when i was young and then all gone after the years i lived. this isnt whati expected. but then life is always unfair. i appericiate but why. no, please. but if you really have to. then. theres nothing i can do. every motion you do, theres a clue. yes im sad. no i dont hate.

i heard my cat snoring, cute sound. haha!

(im hungry in actual fact.)

(no matter how bad you bite me, i still love you kittiy!)

went home straight yesterday, cos im werking at 3. called the store, and my name wasnt in the schedule. so i went to sleep. then at 6.30pm i went out and ate lunch+dinner at mac superbowl alone. waited for the right time to go jp. texted k,i,a,q. after finishing my meal, i went off to jp to meet q. we window shopped. then went home, before going home, went kedai cine. then went home. called a when im at home cos im bored.

wants:
1) that striking pink bag
2) eat chocolate, like no tmr.
3) that kube thinggy.
4) nasi briyani, cos im hungry!

absorbency, hahaha!

(is nadiah muscular or what? ahaha. its not mass. syazwani is like a mantis that nadiah wna eat.)

ive been good, i even tell my teacher the real reason why i didnt attend school cos i cant hide it anymore. ive been so stubborn, im doing things people wished i wouldnt. i had pe with S today. hahaha. i bet i can run alr. hahahha. i ate so many things today, this and that, chocolate fudge slice, lemon barley, junks junks. ive checked my weight. its still 62kg. told mom about my weight, she said, she weigh 69kg. whatever lah mom. haha.

my mommeh's height: 1.69cm
my mommeh's weight: 69kg
my height: 1.62cm

my weight: 62kg

(how cool?)

im missing someone, a friend.

how do i miss him?

cos of time, that flies.

and avoidency(?) is produced.

that brought(?) us apart.

as if we never see each other again.

and its sad. really really sad.

no paint to paint.

milk tea in the morning. the sky said, " ill be crying. " i didnt attend school, the reason is why? alah, you know this that this that? hahaha. mood for school isnt there. my art teachers is trying to make me come to sch. cos today theres art lesson for 2 hours and a papercut lesson. damn. nevermind, i can do my self ah ok? i wanted to paint my final piece but. theres no paint, no paint to paint. how? haha. i think i final piece look somehow wierd but the meaning is there. theme: flight. meaning: the act of fly, escape and stuff. i wanted to touch and try drums. ive been wanting but im not desperate ahaha. guitar lessons? ahaha am i like born not to learn it?
only one particular song will do.
just one. why, one?
cos ill play it for you, you?
yes just you, no one else gonna hear it.
just you and me. you'll hear me, singing.
ill sing till dawn, ill forget the world.
cos ive been waiting for that moment.
to come with you, top of the treehouse,
and the song, ill play and sing.
like thats the only song i know.

once upon a time, nadiah went cycling.

then nadiah fell down. then i got minor injuries.

i take a good look on my knee, it wasnt really bleeding.

but i know, i got bruises on my knee for you, haha.