i made it

I made this and followed accordingly how i felt.

dont break my heart unless you can put it back together, but if you cant,

then hurt is what i'll feel forever.you once were my world,till i found out one night. no words i could say will get you back, but now i quess im ok with that. i gave you my heart and i gave you my love, but i guess you must have lost it, because you found it in her.i tried to send the sense of love from me to you.but you just did nothing.i mean, like there was a 98 year old lady who was drowning, and you did nothing.i failed this time. im not going to try it again.It hurts so much, until it cant be describe in words and sentance.i was getting nearer, but it was blocked by your words.you havent experince broken heart, because you havent heard what is true love.it was hard to forget.i'm allways trying to cover my sadness by words .if one day i walk pass ur face,i'll just say hello.and walk away. if i knew this would

happen, i wont do it.even though your gone, i'll try to remain the same.

you didnt mean it. but i do.

you pretended.but not love.

now, i hate you because you pretended not to know.

byebye;

NADDIE(:

Listening to : For What Its Worth - Amber Pacific

HELLO(:

So today, i'm following my aunt to Lok Yang, near Tuas.
Theres a Toy shop there. All at $1. Sigh. I havent bathe.
But i ate my breakfast allready. hehes.

Tommorow if can, I wanna go vivo city, to watch my friend
band perform. all the best to you guys. am i so supportive.
lol. so, anybodys going? between 2:40 and 3:00pm.
They say they will perform at 2:50 on the dot. how can that be sure.
but still they rock to the core.

So here it is,
NOW PLAYING: Distant Memories - Comic Strip
enjoy!
byebye takecare;
NADDIE(:

HEY(: DEAR SERGIO

So heres pictures with captions, for today.
All of the pictures here can be found in Malaysia.
I took it when I'm not sleeping in my fathers car on a sunny day.
So here it is,

No matter how negative we think, they still like their town.

My world is turning black.

I chase the clouds.

This I got no captions.



Have you bought your umbrella?







Look how tired she is.

It's never been easy to look for food.

Leaving a town.

The parking lot lights, were switch on late today.

The creations of god.



So my post ends here.

take care byebye;

NADDIE(:

WHEETSS!

So what happened today?
Overall fun. Yesterday my sis borrowed my Aunt Korean movie,
entittled 'My Girl' I bathe at 10 in the morning and watch the whole
series of that korean movie. 10 in the morning till 3 or beyond.
I also forget.

I was to excited to see what happened. So I watch it all.
The movie was nice, sad, funny and exciting. I like it even
though they never say it in my language , but the subtittles did.

Then when in the middle of the story , lil' shortie called me, and said
he's bored. that time it was raining. he couldnt wait to meet me.
what an excitement. you'll just need to wait alittle longer.
this wont take you forever.

now, every week i'll upload new songs to my blog.
or you may request the songs to my tagboard and i'll
put it up if i have. or something.
so now, youre
listening : Over My Head - The Fray

okayy. i know. people are not intrested in this. so i just have
to end.

byebye;
NADDIE(:

it will be the
happiest
when meeting
you honey!
take care!
love you(:

HELLO(:

Okay, time to update. So yeah, Saturday I meet him then walk around in
JP. He really look very different ey. Didn't thought this was his image.
But nevermind it's still him. Not for long, I got to go.
sigh, it was just like a minute.

Then went home transfer on what i wear to cover from head to toe, and
zoom to the mosque. Then at 6 in the afternoon went home. Pack my things.
Bring this , bring that. I dont bring much(: Then, at 7:30 pm.

Went to my grandmothers house at Bukit Merah. Got my cousin birthday.
Then I carry the things that is needed to bring. Then when I reached at the
void-deck the house, I and my sis check on our clothing. hehes. We got
nothing better to do. Then take the lift to second level, oh-what a waste of time.
At the outside of the lift I heard the voices singing the birthday song.
Then I destroy! They all singing merrily, I steped-in, hulu hulu.

Salams all the makciks and neneks and datoks and little sedares.
Then I just stand near the corridor and wait for the cake to be severed
to me(: The cake was strange aites. The chocolate was flavoured, nuttella chocolate.
One of my breakfast ingredients. Then I saw 2 boys who was his friends.
One is Hakim and the other one was Yasin.

Then we all procedded to the bedroom, and watch them play, UNO card game.
Intresting, was they use this stupid word all the time, aspecially Yasin.

He said: " alamak kau! tayek ah. dier nye turn la! "
I ask: " Tayek tu aper? "
He answered: "tayek tu word taik kite. "

Sigh. nice to meet them. This boys are from budak harbourfront.
Which known as The Vivo City People. All of them are nice.
Then went to m'sia. Then, sleep at my grandmothers house beside,
my mom. Nice comfortable and big.hehes

till here: byebye;
Naddie(:

Long time

Its being a long time i never update. For all who wanted me to update.
I am here just to update. miss my blog. changed song. blogskins. colors.
So yeah, i'm rotting here. got many activities to do u know.
washing the dishes. mop the floor. cycle my bkie. listen to my mp3.
go to SGH , NUH. still got more.

wait, i forgot. what else eh.. bathe my cat. bathe myself.
watch tv. wear my clothes. brush my teeth. dont get dirty.
and disturb my cat. im not sure if all of these were all the things
i do were here. what else can i tell you guys.
im busy here and there. u know SGH NUH is like the same but i like
SGH better. nice u know. new equipments near my neighbourhood.
and that saturday i go msia, bought,
a white jacket, mickey black and white clip. they are all nice.

then that time .. i forgot the day.Mdm Zurinah, Kenneth,
Kim Hiang, Phone Myat, Jit Yee, Timothy,Xin Yan, Wei san,
Qistina, Siti and me went to victoria hall.
watch a concert from YCSS. it was nice and funny. but some are
boring. and got this perticullar man kept shouting at the back.
he got one huge giantic voice. everyone can hear it.
then we went home by train, i'm the most disgusting one.
hehes. then we drop at jurong east. and went for late dinner at mac donald.
i get tortured by siti. everytime i kept doing something, she pinched my
cheek. pain u know. got red red.
then went home by bus. phone myat get pissed my us.
pity pity. then i listened to my mp3 and waited to the place to drop.
that day i reached home at 12 or something and i wore,
light brown jeans, black jacket, white singlet, converse shoes.
and i bought a small paper bag along.

what else ehh..

I miss you like hell here.
carving your name in my head.
crying just to hear your name everyday
cant wait to see your face honey!

byebye;
NADDIE(:

this thursday ingat tau!

FREE HUGS!

FREE HUGS!







When I watch this for the first time, I
thought, it was stupid. But when I watch for
the second time, it touched my heart.
This video shows that with one hug you
gave to someone can make their life
change with your bare hands.
A hug means alot to the love ones.

never reject a free hug!

A day of me.

I put another 2 songs in my blog. I like all of the songs. They were walking
with the tune of the song and it get it in my brain. It was stucked in.
So today, later go kedai with sarah.

Yesterday is a day, where i founded myself like i was hanging myself in my hall.
Something happened, wich i didnt expect to. A lesson made. My handphone being
surrendered. Alone at home. What I allways do is shout like hell and sing!
My voice, went harsh after I adjust it to be alittle longer. OUCH! it was.

And I'm currently singing the song M.I.A. It was nice. Damn bloody nice.
I'm gonna change my profile. So yeah, have you ever wonder how to check
your intestine to know whether it was healthy or not.

Step 1: Olny check this when you are past motioning.
Setp 2: Let out the motion. WAIT! Don't flush.
Step 3: If your motion has gone one at a time and after that you feel good,
it means your intestine is healthy.
If your motion has gone bit by bits, it means your intestins is not
that good.

P/S:Only try this in the toliet. It will work.

put your head in the toliet bowl for a clearer view(:

Avenged Sevenfold - M.I.A.

Staring at the carnage, praying that the sun would never rise.
Living another day in disguise.
These feelings can't be right, lend me your courage to stand up and fight,
on tonight.
Ooooo....Stand up and fight.

The fighting rages on and on, to challenge me you must be strong.
I walk your land but don't belong, two million soldiers can't be wrong.
It's no fun but I've been here beforeI'm far from home and I'm fighting your war.
(Not the way I pictured this, I wanted better things)
Some are scared others killing for fun, I shot a mother right in front of her son.
(Take this from my consciousness, and please erase my dreams)

Fight for honor, fight for your life.
Pray to God that our side is right.
Even though we won, I still may lose
Until I make it home to you
I see our mothers filled with tears,grew up so fast where did those years go?
Memories wont let you cry unless
I don't return tonight.

So many soldiers on the other side, I take their lives so they can't take mine.
(Scared to make it out alive now murder's all I know.)
Nobody tells me all the reasons we're here. I have my weapons so there's nothing to fear.
(Another day, another life, but nothing real to show for)

Fight for honor, fight for your life.
Pray to God that our side is right.
Even though we won, I still may lose
Until I make it home to you
I see our mothers filled with tears, grew up so fast where did those years go?
Memories wont let you cry unless
I don't return tonight.

Staring at the carnage, praying that the sun would never rise.
Living another day in disguise.
These feelings can't be right, lend me your courage to stand up and fight.
Watching the death toll rise wondering how I'm alive.
Stranger's blood on my hands, I've shot all I can
There are no silent nights, watching your brothers all die
To destroy all their plans with no thought of me
No thought of me, no thought of meOhhhhh.....

Walk the city lonely
Memories that haunt are passing by
A murderer walks your street tonight
Forgive me for my crimes; don't forget that I was so young
Fought so scared in the name of God and country

I love this song!

The day.

So yeah just now hes online and send me pictures. Not much things happened today.
He really give our enemy a good lesson. Then our enemy da kecut, gi call dier nyer
kakak. Ingat ape orang tue kite takot? Eheh, gi tgk tu orang tue nye pepet berape baser.
Baru kite takot la. Then after Religious class, I went home. Then go openhouse.
It was yuckish! I didnt eat anything at all. So yeah, not much thing to talk about. I'm
putting pictures.

ME

HIM

I look stupid there. But I like my hair. Messy! Messy! Messy!
And HIS picture. He look like a 13 year old boy didn't he.

And this i made.

I miss your hair the most! cause i use to play with it.

I miss your face. cause i'm not gonna see you these days.

I miss your feet. cause i look at it when you run.

I miss your body. cause it is small.

I miss your heart. cause i use to take care of it.

the thongs in the toliet.

(:

So Yeah, the BBQ was yesterday. Its was fun. Not many people attended.
But yeah still fun. i learn how to set up the BBQ pit. It wasn't easy at all.
It was very hard, yeah. It needed 3 people to lit up the fire in the BBQ pit.
The BBQ pit was quite big. Went out at 12 plus and went back at 9pm

Then went home by MRT. Then when I get to the other train Yip Huan
was not in the train. Whether she miss it or she is on the other side.
Then this morning I ate Speghetti. It was in tomato flavour, quite nice.

And leter I think I'm going to IMM with my auntie. I wonder what is
She buying there. My job is to puch the baby trolley is where my
baby boy little cousin sits. He's cute!

I wish not to leave you.

say goodbye

Its now2104 hours.16 November 2006. Went back home late today because got
something on today at school that affects all of the Primary 6 student to
be there. Then after school tears were made. Friends crying with laughing faces.

And This i made for all.
And here I got to talk about all of you.

Aidil, the one with full of dirty informations.
Afiqah, the word tells it all, The President(:
Amani, known as cutie.
Amirul, the boy who owns the colour black and white back teeth.
Aznizam, the squinted eyes.
Fateh, My Shortie(:
Farhan Tan, the one who blames himself when people says hi.
Liyana, the Chubby Girl
Maisarah, the one full of old memories.
Mawaddah, buddy reading manager.
Nisa, the quiet one.
Norazielah, still known as the Jiwang Lady(:
Norafifah, the one who never fails to smile with white teeth.
Nur Liyana, the RichRikky(:
Nur Hanisah, the mak ciks(:
Nurul Syafiqah, the pet pot one.
Qistina, the quiet but at home not(:
Siti Hanisah, the girl who lieke to punch the school wall.
Sofian, selalu mendak.
Siddiq, your red pants.
Syafiqah, she borned on Valentines day.
Shamirul, your face got taik lalat, suits you.
Shahirah, the tall girl. shes damn tall.
Syuhada, she got intresting experiences.
Zamirah, the maggi hair machine.
Zulhilmi, dier nanti sec 1 klw ade gerl mesti susah nye. i gurantee.
Zuhri, the irritating.

No matter what u say now, its no use.
Primary one: ey! we best friends ah.
Secondary one: I dont remember you.
Everytime you walked together with your friends, you'll se shadows.
When you're a secondary one student and you remember us,
you look on the floor you'll see olny one shadow.

the jokes, the problems
the smiles, the enemies
the teachers, the friends
is all gone.

starting a new life will be hard.
forgetting us and all.
but one day we'll see each other again.
say goodbye

I'm puzzled.

It was friday, I helped Mdm Hasnah before school ,class 5A3. It was MT period
that time. She ask us to take care of the children. They were damn noisy.
I one shouted at this boy, badly. darah up sial. He make most of us mad
and there was this little girl. The girl was nice looking but rude.
Now i knew that it was a no easy job to take care of one class.

Then after school went to meet my friend and siti, we thought of going
out together, but only 3 attended. And I cant help the buddy reading
thing. sorry. We talk outside the school planned where to go and ended
up somewhere near. And it was raining heavily. So we waited for the
rain to stop.

First, siti went home, then left 2 of us. Siting in one bench. Then, he lay
down and I played wtih his hair. it was soft. I took his shark and tickle his ears.
I got nothing to do. We talk and talk and talk, then it was 3:00 pm. And we
stayed there and 15 minutes later we went home, I take him home across the
road and then I went home. Then Aznizam's mother stopped me. And talk talk
talk. Then respect her and went home.

Then when I went home, all strange thing went in my mind.
Your private message.
And your messages.
I'll, investigate this and one more.
Strange e-mail addresses.

Looking forward for clues(:

leave me alone for a week if you dare. wahaha.

First day.

Okay I'm fresh early in the morning.Got to post.
Many of my friends not matured yet. Hard to explain. Thy just wont understand. These days, quite bored. Because I didn't post and reply tag.
Sorry guys. And today's the day for the e - learning.

Yeah, stupid e - learning, because P6 is leaving school. hate it! But what to do.
We are being forced. Haish.

Well I got to go.

hate? seek revenge.

I hearts you.

Todays phrase: $18 dollars used for the comments of the judges.

Here's something for you, I made it myself.
Friday, 1859hours.

Could anything be any beautiful than talking with you,
on the phone until 2 am in the morning?
The joke and laughters that I will never forget.
When the first time I sit beside you,I feel
a little bit, what we call that stupid.

But when the time flies, things started to change.
My hair, shoe size, and my maturedness.
I didn't expect something to make my heart fall on you.
Then it did.

Time after time, I have hold on memories to remember,
on a very sad day.
We have big problems but we get through it all.
You cheer me up, every single day.

Sometimes you never failed to make me happy.
Now, my future is brighted.I'm going the same school as my friend.
I hope to have long beautiful days with you.

A promise you kept.
And one for myself.
I will remember.
We will allways share moments of life.
And remember the stupid ones.
To make your life and mine brighter.

I will remember you until my black parade day comes.
Don't leave me, because,
I love you.

I wonder.

Well days get better day by day , then The Regions practise at my house.
Then waited for Amani and Liyana to come, I and sarah eat up some of my kuihs and drank pepsi. Woo. Nice ehh.

Then while drinking pepsi, Liyana and Amani came by my house.
Liyana rang the bell ant times, thought who. Then it was her.
Wahahas, next time come my house rang once or twice olny ehh.
If I didn't open the door then, you may rang my door billion times.

Practise makes prefect. We liked it very much. Then we go shop. Many
problems come pass us by, but we go through it.

Heres a poet done by me.
Thursday, 2224hours.

It was when a nice sunny day come but
sad night come pass by.

You can't bear the pain.
Let me steal the pain I want to feel it.
I can't stand the pain that you got, let me steal.

I don't care what people say, whether it reflects or not.
I don't remember the salty memories but i remember,
the sad ones.

Its you, who I care for.
No other person in this world.
Please.

pity u.

Its been like three days.

It has been like three stupid days, and my blog without three posts.
HATE it man! Yeah true i hate it but dosen't mean my blog take me down.
Stupid ehh. I can't stayback after school today, sorry u..

Then take the bus 98 to Liyana's house. We practcise like hell.
Meaning everybody improve , so its growing better and better.
I as a member of THEregions am satisfiyed with all, Shairah attended.
Amani improve. Liyana gave more steps. Maisarah did the song shake intro.
All of these takes time.

We will not regret whether we win or lose.
My aim is to get on the stage and dance,
show my beloved teachers what we carried all,
along together.
Our mistakes, we correct each others.

We had fun along this practise.
We don't care what we look like.
We are proud of what we do. ( please stop correcting us )
We don't care what you say.
We knew what we did.
We know who we are.
We did our way.
We hate them.
We practise.
We are one.
We decide.

We are The Regions(:

LONLEYsaturday):

Yeah just came back from my relatives house, in the end i reveived a
total of $34. Five houses for $34, okay okay larr. Then went back
home, and now posting(:

Got nothing to say, I hope I get more money. Thats what I'm thinking.
hehehe(: Tired, I' still wearing my black baju kurung. Malas ar(:

Just missing somebody, haish.
Got nothing to say.

dont throw the stars, i'll kill you(:

THE!day

Today was the day I was nervous after dancing on stage with all my members, and I was abit like stunned, nervous makes me go wanna run so damn fast but
I can't, we are in the hall. You know, so FIVEminutes after the thing, I ran the
fastest I could, in fact the fastest in my life I've ever run.

Went to the toliet and produce things, then went back to the hall and everybody
was going home. And then...

before D6 walked up to the hall, we watched our friends sing and dance then at the end of the show was our turn, shocked!
We didn't practise much only today we practise with the most effort on that day.

Thanks to:

• Fathiah, for playing the song in 6C3.
• My members, for participating(:
• The Audience, for supporting.
• Mdm Zurinah, for giving me this chance to show((:
• Yee Ching, for sponsoring.
• Xavier, for making my mind blank on the stage.
• Maisarah, for encouraging me to be in, not out the last minute.
• Ahmad Tirmizi, for giving stupid answers.
• Phone Myat, for understanding about the CD(:
• My leg for making me dancing.
• FRIENDS(:

Thankyou Fateh<3 for keeping the cute little stars(:

Wednesday eh?

Okay, Wednesday, busy about the dancing thing.
Not much time only now, so see you all in SCHOOL.

SCHOOLrocks(:
YOUrock(:
WErock(:
Irock<3

together we are.

bussy me((:

Sorry, I'm busy now.

Selamat Hari Raya to all!

okay now bye!

My adventure(:

So yeah, yesterday just came back in Singapore about, 12:15pm. Tired it was but intresting.

So on Friday night I went to Johore. On the way to my kanpung place,
I watched a CD in my fathers car, the movie was tittled ' HEART ' The story was sad. THREEquarter part of the movie I take out my white polo-T, and cry. At the back of the car, the car was EIGHTseater car so I sat at the back. I cry cry cry. It was damn sad, I can't take it. then I fell asleep.

Then I reached there, they lay here and there, like no one was there. Then at 12:30midnight, another TWOfamily came. And we play fire crackers at 2:00am in the morning. Nothing much lar.

Then the night before we went home they play mercun again, this one was like the happy chinese new year one, the niose was loud even the size is about my thumb, it make alot of noise. Then the next day we went to this flower shop and went home.

My journey ends here. bye, I got to go and change my langsir in my bedroom
wahaha(: last minute.

aku akan melakukan ape sahaja untuk kebahagian seseorang kawan yang ku anggap macam adik beradik ku sendiri.

Dance dance(:

DANCEdance(:



I dedicated this Video to
Maisarah, Amani, Liyana, Shairah
Hope you guys can follow some of their dancesteps
I really love this video. They are not pros' they are just normal people
like beginners. I gave high hope on you guys.

Learn from here, there is many to learn from here.
The song is nice.

So that's it. I'll post another one post later or tommorow
about my Adventure in Malaysia.
Thankyou for watching, seeing and visiting,
please come again(:

I miss you(:

AWAY):

I'm away...

BALIK, kampung(:

So yeah todae going to Malaysia there, and make shits. Then jusnow damn scary,
when want to go home after going to Liyana's house. Then I was like WTF?!
Btw my class they making coolshits from the UNO card and stack them up high.
I shouted 4 times when I see the Tower going to fall.
Scary you know, feeling like the real one.

Goh Sheng won the contest!
Jit Yee came in Second
Wei San came in Third

Then Yip Huan, she kept doing the same thing again and again.
This I rate for you, Yip Huan got no hope for this better be
my chinese translator(:

So yeah I'll be comming back next SUNDAYmorning(:

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Selamat Hari Raya Kepada semua umat - umat Islam Singapura(:
Orang cine boleh tolong cuci bontot periuk eh. Takkan dapat upah nyer.

TO THE LOVE ONES:

May you remember me as I did
I hope we will last long in this world
I love you like you did.
Oh please, NEVER leave me; I MISS YOU!

News! News(:

Okay. Todays chart. The chart have worsen.
Ok people the Haze comming back. I'm just warning you.
The air for today id bad. Please stay more at home. Or else you'll
be like me.I got Asthma for 5 days. Not so bad la, but stil abit'
bad ar.

So now, todays news is about Eight US soldiers have been
charged with murdering Iraqis, including four accused of
killing a raped girl and her family, the military said
on Wednesday. Four soldiers were charged in the rape and murder
case and four others were charged in a separate incident
involving the death of Iraqis.

Two of the four soldiers accused in the rape and murder of the
girl and her family could face the death penalty, the US army
said in a statement.

The charges came after a military hearing investigated
allegations that several of the soldiers raped the girl and
tried to make the murders look like a sectarian attack in a
town near Baghdad on March 12.

So thats all for today.
Visit more on mysite.
I'm Metalini.cly from 80 news,
See you tommorow.

181006: Haze.

Ok, Todays haze was good. Ok Ok. Sourrounding in Singapore will be
25 - 33 Degree. But I think at night the graph will change.
Not much thing to say. But I got news.

In Sentosa, now they have this one part called Sentosa I.R. That means,
Sentosa Intergreted Resort. And there is one who bid $5.28b for
Sentosa I.R. There wil be a new coral reef created. This place is to
give humans interact with the next-generation of life that is robots a
naturalenviroment. Complicated it is but still a nice place.

The integrated resort will feature the theme of Atlantis - an underwater
world - with some 150,000 marine life of 1,500 different species planned
to be introduced to the property.
Marine life will not be the only thing in abundance; robotic animals
with natural or what sciencetist called artificial intelligence will
also be found next to their living counterparts. Intresting.

This Sentosa I.R. includes Universal Studios theme park and three
water-themed attractions. They include the world's largest oceanarium
- the Quest Marine Life Park - with 700,000 dolphins, bat rays and
open ocean fish. Ok, people they are NOT crazy people.Visitors
can also enjoy "water-coasters" and rides that wind through lush
greenery and forested areas, or try out the surf pool at the Equarius
Water Park.

And that's all for today,
this is Mi.c from 80news
and goodbye(:

80news, Metalini.cly

Haze alert

Bali
Partly Cloudy 24 - 31 Degree
Bangkok
Thunder 25 - 34 Degree
B S Begawan
Thunder 25 - 32 Degree
Haadyai
Thunder 24 - 32 Degree
Hanoi
Hazy 24 - 32 Degree
Ho Chi Minh
Thunder 23 - 32 Degree
Jakarta
Hazy 25 - 33 Degree
Kota Kinabalu
Showers 25 - 32 Degree
Kuala Lumpur
Thunder 24 - 33 Degree
Kuching
Showers 23 - 34 Degree
Manila
Thunder 25 - 31 Degree
Phnom Penh
Thunder 24 - 32 Degree
Phuket
Thunder 24 - 32 Degree
Singapore
Showers 25 - 33 Degree
Yangon
Thunder 24 - 32 Degree

See more updates on haze in South east asia.
ok. till here.

Mystery User.

I as one of the blogger member, agree that there is
a Mystery User. Then I investigate. This is what I get.

Results:

- blog infected were all malays
- blog owner is malay girls
- cluster B and C.
- Mystery User have similarities among the tagboard.
- Mystery User like to vulgar.
- Mystery User is a malay too.
- The same school as us
- WE KNOW WHO YOU ARE(:

So long after weeks of tracking down all these notes, they
help me on finding who this person is. Wherever you are,
you not need to hide. Your secret is out. We know you.
Eh, but actually not need to track down larr. There is once
in one of the blog, damn la so obvious it was the Mystery User.

WE KNOW WHO YOU ARE

):

Sorry no mood, so post will resume on the days where I like.
I'm just tired.

YOU will be the happiest person in the world,
to see me suffering to death.

YOU will , wouldn't you?

Bored To Death

Ok now. The day was damn bored, yeah. You know go home after
slacking around the school. Then went home, got nothing to do.
Now no revising allready. PSLE over. We enjoy people but scared
if we didn't get to get out of our/your/my school.
Please god let me change my uniform next year, a blue coloured one.

Now is 1523hours. Another o332hours till fast that is 1956hours,
if I'm not mistaken. Should I paint another artpiece? Nahh. Don't think so.
Better groom my cat when she was sleeping, goodey' ? You know, when cats
are sleeping, it is easier to groom cause' it dosen't move much.
- I love you *meow* -

Seriously bored today. And btw Happy 12th B'dae to Maisarah.
Hap Hap Hap Happy...
Birthday ...
Maisarah...
* applause *

True Facts About Cats.
- Cats sleep more than 6 hours(: per day.
- Cats hates other cats, they will act strangely
and attack or you'll see their fur became sharper

True Facts.
- Nadiah is disgusting(:
- Talk Shit language sometimes.

Bye haze(:

Ok this morning the haze was gone for good. Thank god. Monday
can come to school and take my Science paper. Todays day was
an energetic one. I cleaned 4/5 of the house windows, for 10
dollars. So I did it for my happiness. My religion class examinations
are driving me mad.

After wiping 3 sets of windows, I played the computer for 2hours.
Then continue my work. It was a quite energetic one, you know,
moving here and there using the ladder. I'm listening to a song now,
tittled 'I miss you' by And then I turned seven. Nice songs they have.
Really my kind of songs that i like to hear.

Lets talk about me.
I'm irritating. I'm born to talk nonsence, unimportant things and all.
Laugh soo, over at times la. Not so long la, if you think got somemore,
go tag ok?

True Facts.
- Nadiah do have her own teddy before going to sleep.
- she loves it very much(:

My first true facts on 2118 - 081006(:

Haze in Singapore

Ok here's the latest news in Singapore. Haze. At between 2000 to 2100 hours the
PSI was 150. It was the higest in 2006. Now lets see the South East Asia Wheather
tracks.

Bali Partly Cloudy 23 - 31 °C
Bangkok Thunder 26 - 33 °C
B S Begawan Thunder 25 - 32 °C
Haadyai Thunder 23 - 32 °C
Hanoi Hazy 24 - 31 °C
Ho Chi Minh Thunder 23 - 30 °C
Jakarta Hazy 24 - 33 °C
Kota Kinabalu Thunder 25 - 32 °C
Kuala Lumpur Hazy 24 - 33 °C
Kuching Hazy 23 - 34 °C
Manila Thunder 25 - 30 °C
Phnom Penh Thunder 25 - 31 °C
Phuket Thunder 24 - 30 °C
Singapore Hazy 25 - 32 °C
Yangon Thunder 24 - 32 °C

Visit more on ym blog to see updates of the haze thankyou(:

My Art(:

So here's a picture of my first art piece. Somehow
it's look abit shitty. But never mind I'll just have to improve
more on my art(:



Well , people who is seeing this picture please rate(:
Thankyou, I got notthing much to say.

Post(:

Ok last week I'm abit' busy with something on. Here is a short post
of my weekends. Some of them will be short and some will be
long. Here it goes.

Friday :

It was Chirdren's Day with some unexpectable thing on the
upcoming. My friend was been caned 3 strokes. Looks very
sad but at the same time, I think he deserves it. He don't
obey the school rules. My first time watching the real Public
Caning was so scary, it was scary because my parents didn't caned
me since I was young.

Please obey the school rules.

Saturday :

Ok, here is Saturday. I went to my grandmother's house to
break fast. The day was too paisey for me as here is
something I want to share with all of you. It was on the Saturday
still fasting month, I went to my grandmom house, not knowing
that my grandpa didn't fast. On that Saturday I didn't eat in
the morning so I'm feeling damn hungry that time. Then I reached
my grandmom house, my mom asked my grandpa ,
" pak tk puase eh pak? " with smiling on his face. it wasn't time to
break fast as I being too hungry take a piece of bread and it was just
15cm further away on my mouth when my father rescue my hand.
" eh asal mkn ni blom lagi la. da da gi letek." see how paisey was I. If
I ate the piece of bread allready It means I just wasted my day
fasting because It was just 2 minutes away to wait to break fast.

Paisey nye. bnyk orang pulak tu.

Sunday :

I went shopping after my religion class. My religion teacher gave me
a small marhmellow packet and a pen for childrens day, still it
was sunday the didn't forget. Terime Kaseh Chegu((: Then I
went shopping, I went to many shops looking for something I need to
wear. I went in the popular bookshop and bought a scrap book green
pen and non-gel blue pen. Then I went to the ' This Fashion' shop
and bought a jacket.
" aku yg pilihkn untuk kau derkkz!" <-- my sis typed.
Then we went home I bought
a Jacket-$26
a scrapbook-$4
a blue pen-$1.50
a green pen-$1.50
a belt-$8

And that's it, for my weekend.

Let's go skanking people!

True Story.

Ok this is a true story. I have experienced it not long ago. I and all of the others have
the same problem together. I'm shamed to tell you the real topic for today so I'll use letter codes.

Letter codes : Todays topic.
( figure this yourself )

13,25 _ 3,12,1,19 _ 9,14, _ 3,18,9,19,9,19

I think we need to work in this together to make our future beautiful.
Without this you'll be mopping the toliet floor after 12 years as the others,
have their own carrier, be a doctor and lawyer. We need to put in our best effort
on that day as it will make the smell to your, our, my future. This consists not all
of you. But I think all better. It was only when I see my own community doing
un - important stuff. In order to pass this, we'll need : encouragement, your soul, mind, body, the people around you. If this fail, this will be in your hands, you'll decide. Now is the time for you to show the nerdy side of you. Not saying " Eh?! U NERD! " .

Now is not the time, not to be a nerd.

" Walao, u nerd sia. "
" I know. Why? Cannot isit ?"

Phrase day.

From now on, my post is all about something. It's gonne by short but meaningful.

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Do you feel cool when I say " I finally got enough. " ?
Do you feel happy now when I almost get caught ?
( reffering to somebody, 'I' refers to me(: )

You think you're cool hanging out with us?
You you're not odd one out?
you think you're gonna survive getting U-grades?
you think you're funny?
you think you're?
Think again DUMBASS!
( currently reffering to HER! )

Ok, that's all. I gtg and do my homework or else I'll be punished.
My post ends here.
Take care everybody.

tata.

What a day.

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Stupid news : We Singapore use too much singlish.
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Ok and yeah. 2026h now in Singapore. I'm blogging
to Damai Sec. peeps blogs. SIA LA they the blog ma,
nice man! Got tis one ar, very damn nice lo.
Got good blog song ar, nice blogskin oso leh. Then ar
I wan to tag rite, I say ar ,
"ALAMAK! NO TAG BOARD?!''
Damm ley. U people reading tis ar, better hav tagboard
in ur blog ar. If not ar, I slam your head at the toliet bowl
cover there ar. Then ar, from there you will learn ur
lesson ma. Got tis one oso ar, manny people view hor. WOAH!
the blog skin ar, damn ugly sommore mannny people view
the blog ley. AI SEY I tot wad so nice sia. Tt blog never link
people ley. Stupid man. Waist my time lo.

That's the end of my today ' Use Singlish ' post. Now is the real one.
Eh?! My mind blank after writing ' Use Singlish ' post, but
nevermind. Here is something that is a part of my
daily life. Here it is.

It was today where I bloghopped more than 50 blogs.
I notce all of the fifty blog have list down all the things,
that they wanted.
And it's like every blog i go they have something
striked out in their wishlist. But at least,
they have something striked out.

But if you see mine,
Nothing is striked out.
Untill when will I wait?
I ask again.

I see the difference between your life and mine.

50% emo today.

Just now have remedial in Mother Tongue class doing Listening Comprehension, with the ol' format. I got 14/20. Because I was doing something during the lesson. 3 people did not attend the remedial. Then after the remedial, we went to the mama shop and drop by our
slumbered-face friend, please welcome the name 'Jun Pong'.

We make fun of his name bacause of the .pong' behind. Then we do our stuffs and laugh like hells coming.

This is what I wrote in my MT class with addition of words.

Malay Language:

Mengapakah, kau buat ku begini?
Hatiku selalu muram dan sedih.
Ku tahu bahawa, ku sudah berbuat salah dengan kau.
Ku masih ingat, kau memarahiku dan banyak-banyak lagi.

Tetapi ku tetap sabar kali ini kepada keganasan kau
Aku tidak sangka ia akan jadi sebegini.
Ku tahu bahawa kau benci kepadaku.
Perkataan benci membuat hatiku terluka dalam mengyakiti hatiku.

Tali persahabatan terputus dengan kesedihan
di dalam hatiku.
Kau jeling kepadaku, terluka hatiku dibuatnya.
Aku memohon kau maafkan ku.

Kembali lah kau dalam tali persahabatan ku.

English:

Why are you doing this to me?
My heart is allways unhappy and sad.
I know that I have done mistake to you.
And you went very angry.

I still remember the day you scolded me, and many more.
But on that day, I went calm asif nothing happen.
I ignore the pain in my heart.
But still I can feel.

I didn't thought that, this will happen badly.
Miss all the good and the bad things you do to me.
You roll your eyes at me and it hurts me alot.
It slashed my heart.

Please forgive me for what I had done.
I'm begging.

Please come back and be my friend.

EMO_SIDE

Today is emo. I'm born to draw emo picture and be one of the emo. I never write something
like this before, but this thought came to my mind. I'm sharing of what I feel inside. I think it's
abit' the same as something.

Every single day when I woke up.
I bathe and eat my breakfast.
Then my father send me to school.

A friend you was one.
But now things had change.

Your smile,
your laughs,
your lame jokes,
they are all gone.

I was alone, and the time of the past,
came by remembering all the good and bad times
we have, even quarreling.

I thought I did the right thing after all.
But I was soo wrong.
Seeing you rolling your eyes at me really broke my heart.
I don't want you to hate me.

I'm trying to do something else to forget, but i couldn't.

I just missed you.

I wanna' say sorry.

Saturday morning.

Now is 1516 hours meaning afternoon not morning. I just got my flu back to me, and
ten - punches from my friend. ( nine on e' left and one on e' right ) I guess this is a payback.
Now I'm listening to the song underneath by jessica simpson. My father downloaded LimeWire'
yesterday. The next day I downloaded songs mix of metal, reggae, jiwang, pop ,rnb, techno, emo.Then I thought my fahter how to burn songs to an empty cd.

And later going to the mosque fro some religion lessons. Abit' bored la the lesson because mostly the people come is the Senior Citizens and I got to wear my scarf and became the minah tudung gerl. I received no sms today, wondering what he was doing now. Not my bisness' la.

Just now I ate fries for breakfast and mnm mega pack size. I just realise that my cat was skinny. But ok la skinny pon skinny la. Wah' heng not fat! If not i'll throw her outside. She's a cat that weighs 5.57kg , and have 4 legs that is coloured white on the first 3 cm. Her tail is 90 degree bent dunnoe why lar i think long ago she is stucked up between the life and got stuck. She has been lving with my family for about a year or two.

I got to go and feed her. it ends here.

Live with me till world ends.

NoMoreHero

Ok, there will be no more hero. Now is emo(: But if you think emo sucks ,
this will change every 2 weeks. And ok.

My update this week is about fun in the library. This is gonna be great!
I'm going to start a new game that consists more than 4 people to play.
The only place we can play in is, in the library. ( stupid right )

The instruction will be given on the playing day itself conducted my me, hehe.
Boys and Girls are welcomed, but BOWL HAIRSTYLE NOT INCLUDED. And ok I'm sure
I'm the one who can't wait.

*P.S.*
Dear me beloved friends,

please be prepared for this, laughter is included
but in this game you can't laugh, ok?

BE PREPARED!

I can't wait!

The day where I regret for my mistake.

It was the first mistake where I started to show people the signs of my regret. I became angry, a sudden silent of my heart.

A day I regret in my soul.
About a simple mistake.
Where I regret the most of my starting life.
I don't know why is this happening.
I don't know why is it like this.

I came to tell myself that,
a mistake can be fixed if I do something,
to make the person happy.
The mistakes I've done today make me realise,
there are reason behind every mistakes.

This make me realise I regret on the simple ones.
My everyday life has just begun.
I will cope to make them happy.
I will try not to regret on myself about something.

The regret, my mistakes, blame me.
This is what I remember.

Blame me on my mistakes then my regret , wake me up.

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away, hey yeah
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In timeYou'll find the way

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

I had a bad day):

I'll never forget that day,when he broke my heart,
leaving me here with nothing to say.
as my whole world fell apart. I remember
how hard
I cried,the feeling
I felt, like somebody died.
I couldn't sleep, or even eat.
I felt so sick, I felt so dead.
It hurt so bad, it messed with my head.
I was so confused ,so all alone. I felt so used.
I wish I would have known,
that this is how it would be,
that you would have eventually
given up on me.

I've been living my alone trying
to get you out of my life but after all this
time I can't help myself but miss you
you're once a dream that came true an
illusion that turned to realitybut suddenly,
things turned differently the way they used
to be untill such time
i have no choice but to let you go.
I think you don't care about me anymore.
I think I should let you go out of my life.

Making me want to blush and die,
But he can also lift me off my feet,
Just to knock me down with a simple sound,
A sound of a word,
Such a heartbreaking word,
Yes,Yes I wil date you,
Yes I will love you,
Yes I will be yours,
But at the same time
it's a
no,No he won't date me,
no he won't love me,
No he won't be mine,
But the worst part is he has said those
yes words to me,but they have never be.

Tell him that I hate him
Tell him that I love someone new
Tell him that I don't need him anymore
Tell him that he is nothing for me
But please....
Forget me.



I will never get what I want.

The day.

Just changed everything only the web. Just now was maths paper it was difficult but i still can do. Then we played the game in school. It was the worst game i ever played. Well it was a stupid game to play. Everybody was like ' wat the fuck man ' . But still it was a stupid game.

I've eaten allready when, I received sms from someone asking me to vote for hady in the Singapore Idol. I think it was a stupid thing to do b'cause, i wont vote. It costs nothing. If , lets say hady wins , will you get anything? No of course.

Well got nothing much. Tata..

Stupid game ends with a stupid requests((:

Letters to you ( acoustic ) - Finch.

Can't you see that i wanna be there with open arms
It's empty tonight and i'm all alone
Get me through this one
Do you notice i'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?

I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so
I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so
I'm writing again these letters to you aren't much,
I know

But i'm not sleeping and you're not here
The thought stops my heart
Do you notice i'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?
I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so [x4]
No more looking i've found home
I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so [x4]

I'm gone away
I'm gone away



Theres allways something missing in my heart.

Blooping(:

I changed my blog song again. This song as compared to my blogskin is showing me that I love him and hate him. A nice work to combine both, as you can see. " Shout to you heart! And your too late! You give love a bad name!" I'm singing... Just know is Malay Oral. It's difficult. I rather do my english oral. It was a piece of shit. Actually many. There are some facts about me.

Facts of me :
1 ) Emo person, but people can't see.
2 ) Talk crap(:
3 ) A fake organiser.
4 ) Hates the word 'whatever'
5 ) I hate when I feel shame.

It was just 5 minutes past when my mother asked my sister to dry the clothes an hour ago, she did'nt do it. fuck la. The blame is all on me. Now is revenge time. I will not help her. Her problems , her life. My problems , my life. She's gonns suffer while I'll let out her secrets slowly to my mom. She is so busted! Why is her undone work is blaming to me. The 49th time have happen. Now i'm suffering later is her. My revenge is never sweet as it will work out slowly.
Damn I'm tired I'm gonna be listening to songs this while before going to sleep to refresh((:

She's so busted!

Semangatku hilang.

Change my song. Tak semangat. Lemah. Sedih.

I think I'm leaving your life.

A place you gave me to stay in your heart.
As time goes by,
I think I have to leave.
Each time you call me,
You said " I luv u."

I think it means nothing to me as you don't care about me.
You flirt with other girls.
I gave you a chance. But then I think this time,
You didn't deserve the chance.
What you do is you broke my heart.

I think I'm being too kind.
All this while I think I just wasted my time with you.
But what I know I hate you I love you.

Things just got worse.

A little boring sunday.

Today is Sunday, now is 1:54:45Pm. Later going to IMM to buy something. I'm feeling like im free but not I still got my comprehension undone. I'm so damn bored got nothing to do. I just bathe my cat just now it was difficult , as my bare hands has to get with the hot water. My cat ran here anf there . I shampoo her with a $13 dollar cat grooming shampoo. She ran the whole toliet until I slipped and catch her tail then the scratch me back with one scar on my hand. She's rough man.

Then yesterday, I went to my cousins house. We played boys vs girls soccer. There were 2 boys and 3 girls. I volunteer myself to be the goalkeeper. My cousin and me played so rough until one of my cousin who was her brother bleed on his left leg the smallest finger. In the end we won, however we played anyhow. Then I ate ' Rojak Mama' it cost $18.90 alltogether. Then we go home I slept in the car, I was tired.

I wonder, I played anyhow and I still win. (: I had no plan for todays afternoon. I think I will be at home only. I looked at my hand , I got 4 new scars on my hand it was given by my cat. But if you see properly you can see more scars. I thought my new baby born cousin to make noises with his lips, then after an hour , he did it. It was the same as mine, at least he learned something. I thought my little cousin , Nadhirah whose age was 6. I teach her how to do clay 'Epok-epok' . Mines was perfect but hers was thin. My grandmother thought me how to do 'Ketupat' I did'nt give up until I did the simpler one, mines was cute .

That's all for now, thats my weekend.

I was expecting more from my grandmother, but she cooked my favourite food, Nevermind then. I'll accpet it.

Things have changed in 2006.

The year 2006 was a stressful year as you know that many work will be given. I just came back from school. Then read Maisarah's blog about 'Friends Forever'. I've never thought about this until today when I realise most of the other side of me was not open to that. I think we never thought about this because, after this year most of us will be seprated from our good friends.Most of us will go to the different school.

But I think we have too continue the good day between us. I was lingering a minute when I think, I only have friends. Never in this world the phrase ' Youre' my best friend.' This thought also made me realise something.

As said by one of my friends, 'The lame jokes. The fun we had its all gone.' I went to think again.
What was that something that made it all gone to the thin air. This made me realise how important are the laughters made by us together. Will I really loose them one day?

Very memorable.

Superman - dunnoe

If you were wondering, what is this song doing here... It's a post. Now is 9:53p.m. , and I'm writing a post while feeling low. This song goes to everybody listening or reading my post.
There is allways something that I can't show , tell and sometime share. Something to do with everybody. But I'm only used to share this with only one person. But then I think twice of what is going to happen.I look like not serious, and allways playful, childish. Well its not easy to look something inside as I allways cover it. And here you are the other - side of me.
_-ME-_

Well as some of you can see, in my MT class. I sitting behind with a small man. He sometimes can see the other side of me. And I can see the other side of him. Most of the things I have I'd rather share with him coz' he'll share with me some of his expericences. Not soo easy to control but, I try. If I were to share something with somebody like Yee Ching she'll not understand, as she cant see the real me. What I mean was the inside of me. This feeling causes me to change as is started with my MT partner. He told me something that is very strange. But I realise its time for me to change.
_-HIM-_

There is on this day I, Mai, Ama, Lyn. We went to Jurong East Lib. Then I remember I need to meet my... Then when I reached there..., that time I chop the place for me and my friend to sit tigrther. I receive a call. Saying that he was here. Sanggop sial dier dari serangoon sec datang jurong. Can I skip the story I dont wanna tell again.. hehe The really dont have the look but my type. My type is bigger than me and taller than me. This story was soo damn long. Its sad to continue. Im soo sorry.

Maisarah please , if you wanna puke at something , please think twice. I f you change your other-side, I'll be happy enough.

Hello.

Hi all. I've put some new songs. On these days..
_-Friday-_

It was after school when we are out of school early. We went to 7-eleven to have lunch. On the way to the 7-eleven we laugh some got reason some no. We are now walking past a photo shop, when Maisarah sag the li shing tea tea song. She was good at singing this, and made me laugh like hell.
Then we walked in the 7-eleven shop. I was doing nothing when I founded my favourite drink it was Apple Soda. I got fed up when Oh tang kao haleemah saw my drink. My drink was in a glass bottle. She tought it was beer. I was like , " Eh think twice ar. you never see the name of the drink wat? " So wat I care in glass bottle? People please think twice. Then I stand in one corner for a while. Then they all buy their foods allready. Some get to sit down and some dose'nt. I dose'nt get to sit so I stand. I drink and drink and drink. Then two ladies outside waiting for their dating partner to pick them up. They both sit down and we inside the 7-eleven shop gets a very clear view. Her butt can be seen as many of the neighbourhood people can see too. It was a free show. Then we laugh and laugh. We son get out of the store. I bring home my Apple Soda cap home. Again Maisarah sang the li shing tea tea song , she add more words to the song. And we walked to a block near our school. We saw some of our class mates playing with a cake. Their face was dirty. Ewwness. Can't you inagine parts of a cake was on your face skin. They only thought of bringing the cake no tissue no water. Huh wat the hell. God give you money to buy cake and you play with it. Please appericiate food. Never waste them. If this happens to Heidi's Day I'm the first to go home. Then Maisarah ,me, Ching went to another block. We don't wanna mix with them. They are dirty with parts of the cake allover them.
We made laughter there. We started to do our homework. Then we went home.
Home sweet home. :) I was hanging on the phone 90minutes+ . Its was fun sharing experiences with other person. So long goodbye.

Never waste food if you buy them.

Jalan - jalan cari makan.

Heh. We don't really go ''Jalan - jalan cari makan'' . Today boring day so decided to go out. I bathe at 2:30pm hehes. I very lazy. After that we took a taxi to IMM with my sis. The total payment was $4.30 .(s'pore dollars) Then we walked in the shopping mall, not so many people.
We first went to this stupid, usless shop and we went out. Then go jalan - jalan to Mini Toons shop. My sis went to look for stickers. I went to look for something intresting. She bought a monkey for a friend that cost $2.95 and stickers for$1.95 (expensive huh?) .

Then we go to take the esclator from the first floor, not realising we drop off at the second floor. We actually need to go to the third floor . We think of a way not to make shame of yourselves, so we walked round the second floor and searched for the lift. Finally, we found it! We too the lift to make through the third floor that was one floor high. Then walked again towards the Daiso shop. Nothing much to see , suddenly I founded a cute hello kitty plastic zip bag. I really cant take my eyes off them so I baught them . It was nicely paked :) Then we walked out of the shop.

We went to take lunch at KFC. My sis odered a buddy meal for 2. The chicken was damn big.
The oily meat and the skin!! The skin was damn thick so I decided to peel them off. ( Eww..)
But them the chicken was good :)) After that we see some damn bloody hell young minahs.
One with lampost hair, one mama keling and one the breast stood up. I was wondering why was her breast is bigger than mine. She wore a red shirt and grey handphone lace aorund her neck.( what the hell!) They kept lokking at us. Hmph, they bought so many food and act big.
Not long after, we finished our food. *Burp* *burp* *burp* dirty me.

We again went to the Mini toons shop . I want to buy something. Then Before I went out of the shop I bought, Stickers for $1.95, Doo Doo made soft chick $.2.95 and a Blue shoe lace $3.95 (thats the price if im not worng).
Then we go home by bus. We warm up , we walked from the IMM shopping mall to the Jurong East Interchange. Then we see some stinky dudes walking past. Smelly nak mampos. Then we go popular bookshop buy skettles . then we take bus 98.

Home sweet home... at 5:55pm. Tired you know.
Thats all.

Im sitting here all by myself just trying to think of something to do. Trying to think of something anything just to keep me from thinking of you but you know its not working out. Cause your thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the world behind. I didnt mean for this to go as far as it did and I didnt mean to get so close and share what we did. I didnt mean to fall in love but I did. And you didnt mean to love me back but I know you did. Im sitting here trying to cinvince myself that your not the one for me but the more I think, the less I believe and then the more I want you here with me. You know thw holidays are comming up. I dont want to spend them alone. Memories of us together just kill me if Im on my own.Im sitting here trying to entertain myself with my old guitar, but with all my inspiration gone its not getting me very far. I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you. Please , wont you take my hand we got nothing left to prove. Sometimes, memories of very loving time, cant be forgotten.
Its so hard to forget as Im in need of you.

We are on our seprate ways. Even though you are gone, you still mean the world to me.

There is no other way.

Hi to all reading this. Mt father asked me to check if the white computer have internet connection. I check and, the computer have internet connection. I did'nt know wat to do so I searched for malay songs. I founded that, my white computer have tons of malay songs. I hear this songs that makes me feel some kind of different. I have no other way to escape from the song so I hear them. It was so touched that I.... sorry, can't describe my feeling.

On monday I think I'll be going Ice Skating with E Ching and Wei San. Can't wait!
On tuesday will be a trip to neoprint shop at Jurong East.

Back to the topic about the song. The song was Jiwang. This is the first time I felt like this.
The song named ''Permaisuri'' by Data. Sorry to Maisarah, I'm addict to it allready. This song reflect on my days with my ex.
Erti cinta.
-Cinta itu unik.
-Cinta tidak boleh dibeli dengan wang. *Love is priceless*
-Cinta , cinta yg sejati ialah cinta yg datang tanpa memaksa seseorang.
-Cinta tidak boleh bercakap. * having difficulties expressing feelings*
-Cinta itu buta. *Love is blind*
-Cintalah tuhan, keluarga, rakan.*Love your friends, etc..*
-Cintalah kekasih.* Love your lover*

Inilah yg ku faham dari lagu ''Permaisuri''.
Terimah Kasih . Thankyou.

A heart-breaking experience.

I was patched with my ex, last two week.
But then .. something happened. This happened in habbo, Monday 19/6/06 4:09PM
I have experience a heart - breaking moment. Its was strange my eyes started to grow tears.
He ignored me.He have many other girls. He never thought of having only one to be in his heart.
I went everwhere he goes. He was with another girl. Even my friend says too.
What is that you call your true love? I started to asked him amny questions. He never replied.
Then I wrote ... ( in habbo )
U tk pernah sayangkan I.
U tk pernah cintakan I.
U tk pernah sukekan I.
U tk pernah ....

Klw u tk nak layan I , I nak break ngan u skrg.

Then, he never replied, u see having to many girls is not easy.
After 10 minutes, he replied " k. "
I'll short the story.
Hes making me grow tears. I and my watery eyes looking on the computer. He replied ...
sorry It's too sad to continue.

See me online in msn if ur curious.. tell me to continue.... I will...
My msn : lord_of_love482@hotmail.com

Does people understands me ?

Hi. Today nothing much to do so im writing a post. Here's my adventure from Saturday to Monday night.

_- Saturday-_

I got to go a wedding ceremony at Jurong Point near there. I saw the English men family and this malay women. I was shocked when my mother said that we are gonna stay here till night, I was like what the hell ! I straight away asked my father for money and went back home and when i went back home turned on the computer and as pernormal I was smsing Raffiq.

_-Sunday-_

What the fuck! I woke up at 5:45 a.m. getting ready to go Malaysia to Bukit Ramun. I wake up bathe and go metting point my grandmoms house. Grandmom house was packed with the whole family as attandance is compulsary. I was sleeping likea rat in my fathers car when on the way to Malaysia. Again to the meeting point at my Grandfathers house. His house was a teres house. I eat breakfast there, as I was damn hungry. Off..Off.. We go... We are now at the dunnoe where Plaza Tol. And then I sleep again and realise it was past 3 hours. I donnoe where the place was .
I sleep again and realised the car stopped as we are at the Bukit Ramun.
Bukit Ramun was used to be a very hot place when comes to noon and soon after. But heng! It rain. YaY! Tge place was damn crowded .... Suddenly while I was sitting on the floor my auntie asked me to take out something from the car. She told me that the car was unlocked. I wear my shoe and te floor was silppery. I was half way falling when the friction is produced. The car back wiper supported my cheek as it poked my cheek I was shouting my my heart but not in the world. Only god knoes. Bullshit man .. we went home and sleep, ouh I forgot before we left there I salam many people and the gave me money. I counted and the total I found was
Rm = 36 and $$ = 7 ( What the hell man! )
at least i got something ...
I checked my handphone and receive 2 messeges from Raffiq. That time was 11:30pm.
I replied and heres how the story goes.

I typed >> Hi.
He typed >>> Asl u tk reply my msg..?
I typed >> U slm tk reply adn slm I nak bilang you yg I besok tk de kat s'pore tapi u tak reply
so I tk bilang u la.
He typed >>> Ouh.

kite pendekkan cerite aitess..

I typed >> U mate I dah mcm glue ar..
He typed >>> k.la u gi tdo.
I typed >> k bye bye take care! muackz!( i wrote this for fun )
He typed >>> Muckz! luv u.

Hey I was'nt expecting that to happend but it really happened.
That's the end of the story ('' ,) The End.

Korean Madness.

Hi today i got nothing to say. You bored? I knew some of you were bored at home. But whatever
it is i founded a video that can laugh your heads ofF... like mine. So enjoy the show.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R4cQ3BoHFas

**DANGER , PLEASE STAND BY TO FALL OF YOUR SEAT. SPOT THE LAUGH **

Read and understand.

It was afternoon, i had no work ro do so i made this. please read deeply and understand.

" Bekas cinta ku pada mu masih kekal dari dulu. Dan ku sekarang dalam keadaan sunyi dan sepi, ku hanya meminta mu menjadi milik ku sehidup mati. "
" kini kau tolak tangan ku, kerana kau ingatkan aku akan buat kesalahan yang sama. Tetapi sebernarnya aku mahu sesuatu dari mu. aku sekarang insaf untuk mendapatkan mu. Aku mahu kau fikir kan perasaan ku, adakah sekali pun engkau bertanya kepadaku tentang hati ku yg berkali-kali terluka daripada mu. Aku hanya meminta kau untuk paham kan perrasaan ku ini."
" Harapan untuk mu daripada ku tinggi sekali. Aku tidak membilang kau kerana kau tahu bahawa kau yakin yang aku akan tidak terpikat dengan mu. Tetapi sekarang, semasa aku berjalan di daerah mu, kau membuat ku diketawakan di hadapan rakan ku yang lain. Ku berasa malu terhadap mu dan rakan - rakan ku. Sekarang aku mula benci pada mu tetapi..kau sekarang meminta maaf kepada ku dan meminta ku menjadi milik mu. Aku tolak kerana mu, dan aku tidak akan memaaf kan kau . Tidak usah lah kau menbawa ku bunga untuk meminta maaf. kerana dahulu aku dengan ikhlasnya dengan dendam mu itu. Aku kini tidak akan maafkan mu ."

peace out...

Update.

Today as usual got my religion class at 8 in the morning. And ended up at 10.15. Mostly Siti Hanisah and Fateh was there but today they were not. Fateh was going out . And I don't know what about Hanisah , wah thaught she was stuck in the toliet bowl. Some girls behind was laughing like a '' Cik Pon '' when others were doing their work.
Then after my religion class I went home and perpare to go JP to buy something. Then I and my family go jemputan. The jemputan was at Bukit Panjang block 200+. It was held under a block.

Here's the part comes...
I reach there and stand in the middle of the red carpet like a stupid girl. The stupid thing was that there was no empty seat so we stand at the back. Then I said " nie orang eh.. da makan sedap-sedap tak tau nak balik. kirekan orang datang tak tau nak balik" . I was right I think. We waited 15 minutes just to wait for just a stupid seat. There were many boi's as they were helping to wash the plates i think. 10 minutes past before i seat, I saw a boy . He was dressed in smart clothes, he was so neat until i get attracted to him.
I was saying " Alamak cute nyer lelaki nie. Geram nyer aku!!! "
But then when I started to stand I realised that I was taller than him. Oh well, what to do with my height... haizz. But I allways know that there's only one man whom I liked. No matter what happens I'm not gonna change my mind about him. ((:

About Raffiq.
Raffiq was a nice man but need to learn to low down the voice.
We have'nt contact each other for 2 or 3 weeks allready, so I don't know ... he may be dead by now. ( hope so )

About Khairul.
He was my senior. He was kind, caring , helpful and many more.
He said to me that he was my friend. I was soo touched by his every single words that he said.
He was a very precious friend of mine. I ... I ... I can't express my feelings about him. I don;t konw how to make him see that i appericiate his kindness to me.
He was one of my precious, special and everlasting friend. ('',)

hi to all..

Hi people what are u doing...
I'm bored so i searched the lyrics for the song tiger lily. then i sang along with the song and suddenly thought of something .. the lyrics ment something to me i did'nt knew what it was all about. so what i do was i kept listening to the song. more then 10 times a day.. please do not think im crazy..i realy do not understand what it means.

and i gtg bubbhyes..
*Please leave a dropby at my tag!*

Wat the hell..

Today english paper. I was feeling happy and good for english paper 1. Then for paper 2 i started to feel that my eyes are watery. And I realise tha t i'm sick . i can't concentrate on my paper. The hall was soo stuffy and hot like no air.

Then when going home i felt that my eyes is dropping out of my eyes . I went straight home and take panadol and went to sleep. at 3 afternoon, I was ok im not sick then when i slept for another hours i woke up and im sick .

The decrease of my degree is 38.3 to 37.9.
I hope to go to school tommrow for my maths paper . I do not wish to be one of the absentees in my class.

Signing out..

Hie..

Hello people . This post was to be typed yesterday. Nevermind today I write 1 post. This post was in malay language. Well... Please enjoy.

Title:
Cintaku tidak tercapai. ( this was continued with the last week ones. Abit different )

Aku menjumpaimu.
Aku selalu gembira apabila melihat namamu.
Aku tidak sedari yang aku melupai sesutu.
Suatu hari, engkau memintak nombor telefon ku.
Aku pula memberinya kepada mu.
Aku tahu yang aku mengharapkan satu.

Selepas itu kamu mahu menjumpai ku.
Aku tidak mahu kerana aku malu.
Tetapi kata-kata mu yang berbunga itu, kelihatan memaksai ku.
Aku pun segera menjumpai mu.
Engkau mengikut kemana sahaja aku pergi.
Aku membuat tidak tahu kepada mu.
Engkau pula sudah naik darah .
Dan memekik namaku tetapi aku berbuat bodoh kepada mu.

Dan sepanjang hari itu,
aku menyesal kerana membuang peluang emasku.
Aku harap aku boleh berdepan dengan mu sekali lagi.

Selepas seminggu, aku bermula bercakap di telefon dengan engkau dan kawan 2 mu.
Semua ada cerita pada hari itu.
Aku meng******** yang kau akan menjadi ***** ku suatu hari.
Tetapi nasibku yang malang itu musnah.
Kau telah meminta nombor telefon bimbit kawan ku yang lebih ****** daripada ku.
Itu bermaksud yang engkau tiada ******* untuk ku.
Aku kecewa.

Kau kelihatan tiada perasaan.
Tetapi adakah engkau memikirkan perrasaan ku sepanjang hari?
Tanyalah diri mu sekali lagi.

Its true.

( language malay )

Ini sebuah cerita yang pendek tetapi benar.

Aku menjumpai mu.
kamu mahu berkenalan dengan ku.
aku gembira dapat menjumpai lelaki macam mu.

Suatu hari kamu mahu melihat wajah ku.
aku berasa malu , tetapi merasakan yang kau telah memaksai ku.
aku terpaksa pergi menjumpaimu.
aku berjumpa mu tetapi aku tidak hendak memangil mu
sesudah aku katakan yang aku malu.

Kawan mu menjerit nama ku ,
Aku duduk diam , membuat tidak tahu
kamu mengikut aku kemana sahaja aku pergi, pada hari itu

Aku berfikir yang lelaki harus lebih berani daripada parempuan.
tetapi benarkah itu..?
mulai engkau pulagng hari itu, aku berasa sedih
kerna aku tidak dapat melihat wajah mu yang sebernanya pada hari itu.

Aku kesal.
aku harap aku dapat memjumpai mu sekali lagi.
dan aku tidak akan membuang paluang itu.
Kerna aku mencintaimu dan terpikat dengan mu.

Ska.

today i did nothing only surfing songs..
I decided to change my song bat country to ' A message to you rudy '
I am a Beginner Ska lovers..

I miss HIM, I miss HIM
I miss HIM, I miss HIM
I miss HIM, I miss HIM
I miss HIM, I miss HIM

I hearts HIM, I hearts HIM
I hearts HIM, I hearts HIM
I hearts HIM, I hearts HIM
I hearts HIM, I hearts HIM

I love HIM, I love HIM
I love HIM, I love HIM
I love HIM, I love HIM
I love HIM, I love HIM

Damn how long am I gonna wait..??

Damn wat the hell.

Todae I've got nothing but went NOT straight home go to mama shop. I have to meet a STRANGER whom i not know . i got this diesease *MALU* that is in malay .if in english means SHAME u know what i mean ... he started to follow us everywhere we go
in that time i was going to the mama shop buying a drink when 2 stranger whom i guess is the man RAFFIQ and AKAM . these 2 man is each others best friend. i started to panic cause i don noe wat to do.

Raffiq and Akam started to be mad and shouted foul words . ex. butoh and bitch
that time im making the decaying shit of me . but wat a waste of time.
I thought man should be brave than woman then i realise that i was wrong.
i told him im afraid but it seems to be forcing me .
I hope to see them by the road side .
And meet one another .

I don noe wat to say.

Erm... hi to guys out there reading my post .
Hmm.. today normal got madrasah boring sia
the lame madrasah made me so bored
.....
then at 9:32pm i went to play the com.and playing habbo.. and listen to Hafiz As'sari songs
it was damn cool i even can't take it out of my ears he also got a blog cool huh.
so visitors out there wanna listen hi his songs add me at msn
lord_of_love482@hotmail.comyou'ill get all the instructions from me
Terms And Conditions Apply

ybe erm... see you guys there..
(sorry not much to talk...)

The song.

Today i added a very ANTIQUE song ..
for me this song is ok...it reminds me of my ex..
trying not to think about my ex.

and got raining seyy just now and lighting strikes..
and heng my cat is home if not im soo a dead meat.!
and now still raining nvr stop...

and the most loneyiest day of my life....
lalalaalalalalaa
im singing..

so bubbhyezz

and the most lonelyiest day of my life........

taking off my shoes.

now im at my own skool computer lab and now maisarah is acting to crawl on the wall and she is laughing like a witch.....you noe shes like that.
and she started to laughing again like a witch... and ...
Zuhri is suddenly jumped off a chair and laugh like a crazy GORILLA.
fazli is now calling maisarah...
mawaddah is now concentrating to her task by mdm hajjar..
umairah is now thinking very hard....
nadirah is now playing a a scobby doo game...
and at amiruls place is now sourrounded by gerls...
and al FATAH is now walking like a freaking boy around ther computer lab...

AND ZEE HAIR IS GOING TO MELT MY EYES AS
IT MAKE MY EYES MELTING.!!!!

MSG: ZEE PLS DO SUMTINHG TO YOUR HAIR..

Lagu Perangkap cinta

Today again not in school when my 2 ulcers became more worse than the other day.Again i got a call from my own school...
I 'm now listening to the song Perangkap cinta ( recording ) by my best friend ( a boy ) he said to listen to the song if i missed him and i did. here is the lyrics of the song Perangkap cinta.


Perangkap cinta:

Setahun sudah ku menunggu dirimu
Akhirnya kau menjadi milikku
Sukarnya untuk ku melupakan mu
Kerana kau ku cintai selalu

Tapi sayang kehadiran kekasih lama mu
Dataang kembali mengenang cinta dahulu

Kenapa ini semua harus berlaku
Apakah ini semua kerna diriku
Sedangkan aku cuma watak dalam percintaan
Tak sanggup aku melupakan mu

Kau ibarat perangkap di tengah lautan
Tak tahu mana arah untuk kau menuju

Andai kau pinta untuk melepaskan mu
Kau kata aku turutkan
Jika ini suatu pengajaran di dalam percintaan.....

I'm not in school.

Today im not in school b'cause i got a dizzy head and 2 ulcers in my mouth. one in my tongue and one on my cheek. the ulcers in my mouth is driving me nuts difficult to brush my teeth.

then about 11:10am i have a call from my school asking me that why i never came to school todae . Telling them i do not dare to come to school b'cause my own form teachers told me that if i got ulcers in my mouth do not come to school.
At home so bored writing a post and then lie on my bed to rest it is so damn bored at home im alone nobody at home only me and myself .im now listening to Sugar we're falling down by Fall out boy

People reading my post please tag.
I wanna see comments
and by the way was school today good?

Falling apart.

hmm.. wondering what's gonna happen to me todae
ok let's talk about yesterday ...
i amani maisarah lyiana go to JEL to meet people.

not wondering he looked like a rotten egg and humpty dumpty
he scare me away and my friends
straight away go to 3 rd level for safety.
his face right if you all see can vomit hair and blood
dier perasan..nyer orang

we ran to safe our lives
running..
and safe to 3 rd level.
im not gonna meet him ever in my life ..
and i leave him alone...
i hate you ! get outta my life.......
go and die to _ _ _ _ _ _.

Todays day was a tiring day especially in school.
in school i have to hear " SHARAHAN " from miss chan..
all the words she talked it makes my eardrum fall of my ear..
but no doubt still going to JLP
_________
I love my ***** ( * toot * )
he is the only one who can understand me...
today not much to talk but im not gonna give up on chasing my studies in school
sorry you all if i write very short coze my dae was a very boring day....
i appologise for this AGAIN.
sorry a thousand times...
......so i talk to somebody that i ment to be in my life....
cause i wrote a ransom letter....

Yesterday...
was assembly and the r assembly was intersting..
it was entitled " Am I in love ? "
First i felt that this have something to do with most of us there..
when i see the actress acting on the middle part of the story my eyes went watery
cause it reflect on my p5 in class .

last year i wrote love poems that i thought to make this person realise that i love him for 2 years.
he threw away the paper. he don't appriciate my poems.
i get embrassed by most of my friend then i tried to stop it but it kept
stepping on my head
i got this SHY vyrus to him only..
when he was sitting beside me i tried to concentrate on wat im doing but i failed
he went away.
this was the experience..
i like him soo much until i have band 4344 on my studies that made me realise
how much i have been wanting him...

now i found one that i really need but
the man that i admires the most could'nt get out of my mind easily
im trying ti forget him but he stays in my mind...

I failed to get you should I let you enter
my heart again ?
It was unbeliveable.

Yesterday was such a damn boring day.
even though i went to town it was still a damn boring day.
my hubby went on holiday to malaysia. even he was on overseas he do sms amd called me .
i wonder if he cares about me . i think so cause he called me he dosent care how much he has to pay cause he cares about me.
____________
he understand my feelings and most of all he ***** me.
im konw in the world of lonelyness .
he the one that i wished for .everytime when i went to sleep i cannot sleep
and i linger what he was doing right now.
____________
A classmate you were once.
Then a gentle look at your face
As our lives engaged,
You lit my life and I allways be happy.

You're my man my mighty king,
And I'm the jewel in the crown,
You're the sun so hot and bright,
With your light reys shining down.

You're the sky and your favourite coloue is blue,
And I'm the white clouds in your chest,
I'm the rivr clean and pure.
Unlike the rest with the brownish dirty colour.

You're th mountain huge and high,
And I wrote your name in the sky,
But the wind blew it away.
I wrote your mane in the sand,
But the waves washes it away.
I wrote your name in my heart ,
It will forever stay.