one more month 29/9

these days, i realised that im getting more and more committed to my school work but it isnt that good cos, its only a subject. not like most it. ive been leaving blogger cos i think theres nothing hideous to blog about. i dont really talk about school, cos school is pretty fine.

after staying back at school on friday, i went home. i got nothing better to other than surfing the net. i decided to cut my hair. its like a ritual for my soul. cutting my hair makes me feel light and calm. thats random.

i dont understand dad. you want us to stay at home everyday and eat dinner and do chores. we did. maybe you should learn how to communicate with your children. cos we dont understand whats worth staying at home when actually then situation is the same. we dont gather, no. only dinner time and thats it. i find it a boredom. such a boredom that theres not even something like watching a movie together or whatever.

its now, super mangkok. haha. life is unfair. ive been cheering people up, but im still some sort of unhappy-mad-happy-sad feeling, which keeps my mind twisting. that i think no one is going to cheer me up. only love lullaby can make me fall asleep. i dont know what to do tmr. i have superpowers too you know. a good hideous super power. no one can see it, its just my eyes and glasses and intelligence.

somehow, i find today's saturday the best of all. the best.

like flowers.

school is fine,fine than any other days i guess. laughters poems jokes 1100. ive gotten myself flexible with those i think ill never made friends with or even say hi to. except for the ones who have gone back to their country. i cant wait for ms nathan next episode hahaha. shes feeling rather angry and sad. but if you were to look on that smile and laughters on her face, she seemso fine like a colourfull butterfly. wednesdays and like thursdays,theres no change. oh how i wish you knew this. your love and everything gave me strength to myself. not to fool/fell in love or even trust men. thats more i like it. haha.

however, im hoping that anyone thats been in a relationship to last long cos even if one said no, deeply they'll say yes.

im here to correct.
im here to fix.
im just a friend,
that one day you wont need.
(im pretty sure)
im not angry, im not sad.
cos you and i know,
thats the fact.
GO
now, go with her,
cos shes yours forever.
you wont need tears to cry.
dont let it be like,
pearls that fell from the sky.
a cry that you'll remember for life.
SO
dont you regret my friend,
cos im still alive.
to make things right.
for you and her,
that i wished,
youre both together.

thats what i call, happy times

maybe its time. where ill go and change to my old self. all those bad habits that ive thrown, im missing it. even its bad, i miss it. where all those bad habits ive done had made me feel like myself and never lonely. its clearly not an addiction, but it seems that, that is what i love. all those time i had

ive done maths halfway cos i dont want to do it, i know its not a choice. nothing influence me in it, so how?

hand ache, currently in pain.

school is great on friday only eh, hahaha.
history, english, mt, mathematics.

history? japan, fasicm, democratic, failure, learnt from hitler.

mt? firdaus. (britney)

mathematics? (b)^2+4(a)(c)=D

fifah's torn skirt, 6th storey lane.

ruzanna's, nora's, ashikin's ass touched.

home, sleep, out, happy, you, sad.

meow's tail. mr. sun, get well soon!

happy birthday singapore !

so its national day celebration. i wanted to come but then i dont have any red shirt to go to school. i miss sec 2 celebration. its fun somehow. ill be going off to a long weekend in malaysia. starting from tonight. so gonna miss my butters from south park, hahaha. im soo gonna be a happy girl today. im gonna shout my heart out and shop. its been a long time since i went shoping with my own money. kfc spicy drumlets chicken looks tempting. and burgerking too. alah im always hungry. i wanted to take bus 7. cos it leads to orchard and singapore botanical gardens. my long weekend is the reason for my uncompleted homework haha.

and i miss abg fir. cos you didnt reply my recent text. my last text was the longest ive given to you. i must understand, work work work. and thats what you do. i miss talking on the phone with you getting your advises from you. and all. i dont call any other man my brother. only you the only one. i wanna treat you like my own. i miss you abg fir

who's gonna get sick next?

end of the one week MC. I'm going back to school. do you know how much i miss school? going up and down the stairs from level 1 to 6. its been better if i were to be in school. cos there's nothing much to be done at home i assure you. i mean there's a lot to do as in house chores and stuff. but you cant study alone do you? i cant. Ive accidentally deleted 95% of my songs in my mp3. how great can that be? now there's only like 24 of them. and now my sister is sick, it couldn't have been me spreading. its just spreading you know. it couldn't have been me cos we live different houses and we meet up only on weekends, so how can? this one week holidays, its really just me at home nothing much, lots lots of sleeping. most of the days, Ive lost my appetite on eating due to wisdom tooth and food taste much like my medicine, who wants that? its only 10 and my house is already dark. everyone is asleep already. I'm the next victim my bed is calling. no matter how much i hate school, its been school Ive been missing. its like no matter how much you hate a person, its that person you missed.

and yes, new friends are loved
lost friends are missed

this year color for hari raya, pink!