i went to the library just now, then got this indian girl. she pull my pencilbox to a cetain distance to attract attention then say " shhh.. " wtf la. i was like jaw dropped. you should really see how my reaction was. grr.

sometimes i feel, stupid. maybe a dummy. like a piece of shit perhaps. damn. just like i once said in my previous previous previous post, im feel like im just being fucked. maybe if i got a chance to immigrate to another school, i'll be miles away from my hometown. and to some things, they just dont get it right. damn. i hate my classmates. they suck.

nadiah love stewie griffin.

shop.

so, yes it is, i went to tanjung pinang for a short trip. the market was like a rat house, huge people with small place. omg. get me out of here. came to the hotel and went out. so there was 9 people. one baby. two children. 6 adults. two rooms. two king bed. one bed for male, the other for female. then, that night we went karaoke. i feel small. i was like doing the extra extra voice, so so so out of tune. gee, karaoke was fun.

so the next day, woke up at 9 went to the rat market. i walked straight to a shopping mall, because i knew the money was with me, i scanned the shop and bought 2 things, black jeans and t-shirt. i bargained till the price cant go any further down. yeah! ( after three hour(s) )
the driver picked us up and we went to Ramayana. and bought a jacket, skulls version. the skulls were in pink, the background in white.

that night i went to play pool. 3 rounds. and and and, i knew how to use rupiah notes allready. you know, why must people make such a confuse out of money, like dollars and rupiah. whatt only.

okayy, im done.

on holiday.

i'll be moving to another island. not far not near, but i still need my passport. packed my luggage that is small and ment for 2 persons. hope i enjoy. so, i woke up at 8 in the morning. all because of my excitedness. if not i am gonna wake up at9 or 10, i guess by that time they leave me at home allready. so, its a family trip.

grannnys following and told us ( translated to english )
"make sure tomorow wake up after morning prayer ok?" god, she thinks im nuts.
what to rush, the first boat is at 1230.
i love my blog song. makes me shake legs. and the bass guitar, girls with long skirts, the beach, shades.

okayy, i need to rush, havent bathe. so i got to bathe. they've just called us said come here now. i was like ah?! okok. ok people of the world, i need to go into another island for a short trip. blog will be on a a short hiatus.
love you.

42 years.

Today, the nation is celebrating 42 years of living, Singapore.
Singapore, unique, small, cute, and busy.
Singapore has it, secure security, life, leisure and living.
( i dont know what am i talking )
And also, ASEAN Day, NS40 obviously National Day.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE,
YOU JUST TURNED 42!

today tuesday

i am now blogging. hohoho. i feel weak. like im just been fucked. so, i ate hotdog rolls with chilli for breakfast. i came to school today. english teacher didnt come to school today, she is sick. i guess, im getting bad. common test, 13/40. so, now i do feel like typing many many many words. friends suck. im feeling like dead.

so, i just receive a record from the school head department that im a murder. theres many case right now. eventhough after recess, the quadrangle. i kill small ants that is very innocent. what they did was, they walked in front of me and walk around. i use my fingers and took them away from land to my palm. i was like, omg, where your eyes? stupidity. im talking alone.

i enjoyed the sunset today. till 7.03 the sunset was done. so called, like not sunset allready. what if blood vessels burst? eeew~
mrs. bay my principle rocks my mind body soul. ok, so, i till here lah.

the day.

it was wednesday. got netball.
my bag wasn't that heavy. didn't bring my sport shoes.
siti, ruby and ruzana stayed behind and waited. i was different today.
i just experienced my best netball training day out of the other days. best best.
i hate one of the senior. she didn't came today. i hate her. today was freedom.
i hate this pompuan keling. allways give excuse. nanti mati kene bakar, yay!~
i laughed alot today. only bring $3 to school, left $1.50
spent $1.50 for 12 hours in school. i can survive!

i called azielah by her glam father name: muhammad ali.
mine: datok k.
shairah: sameon.
ruzana: ja'afar
ashikin: roslan.
i like the way it is. ((:

i was very happy today. and i dont know why.
it was like yay!~
im clean now, very very.
ok, thats it.
im just very happy today(:

eh keling siak, gi mati la. fatin, its better if you dont exist.

.......... i miss you alot alot alot...........

monday morning.

ok.
its monday morning. youth day(: received some stuffs from school, cool laa.
and damn! primary school student aren't schooling. grrr. teachers day comming soon.
i dont know whether i should bring something or not. nevermind.
i just ate one wafer stick (oreo). nice sei.
this morning i accompany my cat when shes sleeping, she smells good. i bathe for her yesterday. not easy you know!~ she tried to run, but my hands were too good for her.
so, shes hell clean now. can still smell the shampoo.
shes now suntenning her body XD
i got history, malay, english, maths homework not done. yay~
ok, bye.

love.

so this morning wake up, i sing songs with my soul in my bed.
then for breakfast, i skank. i wonder whats up for lunch. okayy people? maybe mosh? wahaha. have you ever wonder that there is some people in this world ate their shit? its like omgomgomg.

avenged sevenfold, my love. wahaha.
here are some of the touching paragraphs from some of their songs.

I can't trust anyone, witness and see it in my eyes
Now I can understand, put faith in you for the last time
It's sorrow that feeds your lies
Falling away, can't buy back time
Burned it down anyways
-Burn It Down.

A good friend once told me you are memory
without them we equal nothing
And all I can see is the place I wanna be,
suddenly my life was so free
Leaves at my feet,
blown to the ground their echoes are reaching my ears
Night's coming fast, suns going down but keep away from me.
-Remenissions.

"Mosh to the rhythm of oi and skank to the rhythm of ska"

pictures.

(nothing remains)


this is how i sit.



row row row your boat.


when theres a tornado.


im stuck in a place, when theres snow in malaysia.

yang belakang tu sebok je. grandfather(:

shadows.

this is all i've got for the rest of my holidays session of june week four.

the night before departing.

today is the night before the departing day. so yeah yesterday i met you and today you. hahas. my big and tall teddy bear. love teddy bear! hahas. and for today gonna use malay language in my post.

TOPIC: orang tue.

jadi kalaw kite diikut kan, mak bapak sekarang makin mepek untuk saye. telefon bimbit saye di tahan hingga mati. ape je eh? lagi pon bapak aku ni tahon da beli tige hp baru. pookey tiang. sampai makcik aku pujok mak aku suro kasi one of the hp utk kite. ape die kesah. jadi bapak aku nie kalaw nak di katekan boleh jadi pelokek bin kedekut. suke hati dorang ah. da tu tkpe. sumenye yang kite dapat tidak adil! bodo(:
nak tahu lebih lanjut kenape tak adil? kalawnyw adil, kakak aku takkan nk curik hp mak aku? rabak la kirekan. nak keluar? keluar due orang mcm tak ade anak. kalaw adek nk ikot pon tak kasi, ni ape nak simpan2 dari kite aku pon tk tau. mcm kes beli 4D je. geram sak. kalaw kluar ngan makcik, macam jadi anak angkat. nak beli bende dier cakap " stock masih ade " otak die. mepek ah sak. klw dapat first in class. ade yang nak puji? kawan, cikgu, makcik. mak bapak jangan harap. dorang nk kene langkah mayat aku dulu. kalaw nak keluar ngan kawan pon tak ade extra money. kite ape kesah tangan panjang pe(: kite kluar ngan kawan jadi boleh beli bende dorang tk nampak . beh klw kluar ngan dorang ep macam boleh beli ke? noo. beli baju? tunggu sale. sale dah ade " baju masih bnyk" puki la sey. harap maaf. tapi, aku tk kesah!

YOU BOTH SUCK!

REALLY REALLY SUCK!

LIFE IS NOT FAIR!

:SUCKER!

i never realise.

you know. holidays drive me mad around singapore and days. i get no idea what day is today. so oh-okay, its thursday.when theres no school, i'll forget the days. today planned going sentosa again. i went to under water world and 4D magix. i touched a stingray, and then shouted. i was scared because i was bodo, and stood hell near the glass. i dont wanna die like how steve irwin died. heh. then, went to eat. all the places in singapore we went far east. there is this food shop in far east, got wantan noodles and sambal wantan goreng. i tell you, i could finish the whole sambal wantan goreng. nice.

and yeah. the menu sheet which the waiter gave us had a bad english, in spelling. wanna know how they spell sprite? they spell, spirit. so there you go. that shop sells air spirit/spirit water for one-dollar and fifty cents. the best time for them to learn is to watch spell cast. pity pity pity. and i never thought holidays made me more nearer in studies too. i miss maths and english lessons, even though the teachers sucks. teachers will be teachers, student will be someone who they aim to be.

going to the library tommorow. hee.

these are the pictures. not many yet. more to come. fun. homework not done, litreature babe. (not mine)


end of the day.


felt high, dont fall.


air ticket.


three hundred and sixty degree of fun.


singer.


thanks for the fire.

baby blues: i wanna see!

on holiday.

on the first week of the holidays, and in one of the days. i went to 3 places in one day.
Plaza Singapura, Far East and Parkway Parade. fifth of june, i went to seven places, including two mosque. from 10:30 in the morning till 8 in the night. i went to, Singapore Expo, Escape Theme Park, DHL hot air ballon, Sentosa Skyride. my energetic makcik have little time at sentosa and decided to go there on the seventh of june. yay. will try to post pictures okayy?

oldies

oldies oldies oldies.
back to old.
enjoy the playlist.

9DAYS.

Hong Kah Talent Show was today. seniors really tought the little ones based on how-to-rock. there was one group who playes the song Seize The Day by Avenged Sevenfold. i was like
" oh-my....". nice laa. i shouted the loudest for them because i was at the front. then a group made rapping which was boring. then an indian girl danced alone on stage moving left to right, which was disgusted by people.released us for recess. it was 10 minutes late. grr. after recess, teacher played the movie space jam 2, bored la sey.

then after 10 minutes of the movie, i went to bed. and woke up and english lesson. english lesson was a piece of bullshit. i've gotten my first litreature homework. must do it when june holidays. june holidays assignment. then went home because i was feeling not okay. didnt attent netball. (netball sucks) later at night i stole my sister makeup. i played with it. fun you know. dapp dapp here dapp dapp there. hahas. dear people another 9DAYS. i dont think you people understand.

happy birthday to you!

Its for you my dear.

Happy birthday!

You must be celebrating in Japan now.

( safety first! )

-emmarrie just shouts happy birthday in the air, hope he can hear in Japan(:

away, one month.

so okayy. today is 14.05.07. the day where i first when to a morning jog. tired. actually i jog about how many meters only. got many people you know. some shouted to wake themself up in the park. nuts. & some really sweat to death. unlike mine, abit only. i went to take photoes of myself yesterday. showed some to maisarah. malu ler. and some really cute small toys. i really got no work to do. gosh.

yes. will be putting some pictures here, to entertain you. im now wearing jacket. actually for my body, there is 3 layer of clothes. ( not including those, okayy. ) black singlet, black t-shirt, think jacket. the thick jacket where i wore them to genting highlands. my degree is 38.3 consider hot or not? (: my body became weak. but im still going to surf the intrenet. im a internet-addict. and going to change the song in my blog yeah?

toy cars; love.

LOVE(; him.

sayang sayang sayang.

okay. today, i tell you, nothing happened today. then after my madrasah i went to play habbo when i added this man in my msn account too. then we talk-talk laa. then i fond it bored and ask him for songs, he gave he his rap version. he is like the Singapore Chris Brown. my first time a friend who likes to rap. nice laa.

at five plus, i stomped to hougang. the man which i went to indonesia get his grandchild after 6 years of waiting.
he the teeth bo-gey laa. but nice man.
i know the tittle has nothing to go with my post, hehes

okayy. im done(:

its the way i am.

so. it has been a very long time i didnt blog. but remember. dosent mean that i didnt blog, i didnt look for comments updates. school is hanging my death. friends? still the same, shitty shitty. i got a friend who like to follow the hairstyle of one of my classmates, but she got one jendol. wahaha. somemore wanted to curse one girl who she called her jendol. she deserve to be called the malay lohan. hahas. im bad laa. well i guess thats who i am.

another one also attempt to copy but her one lepeh, hehe. short summore want to act only.

im so bored. today taking science paper. sucks laa. what teacher thought me really came out of the paper. grr. its cold today. the coldness were like in Genting Highlands. i shiver during my science paper. and slept. nice to sleep.

& i slept yesterday during mother tongue paper2 its like the duration is 1h 30 minutes less than 50 minutes i finished allready. what to do, sleep(: i dream that i was in heaven lying on top of my mother tongue paper. Register number 6 had 3 attempts of waking me up but she failed. im the Sleeping Queen. hahas.

i went through so much in life i wonder when it will end. ish. loving someone dosent worth. i wonder if he/she appericiate it.

alittle story here. (my hair nice? XD)

nie cine suke jeling jeling kat orang melayu. nak tau asal? pasal mate die juleng. ingat cute la tu, skali dgr, dier dalam kumpulan kesihatan orang gemuk. ape la nak jadi. suke carik gadoh pulak tu. bodo tol cine sekarang. hahas.

suke lipat skirt, ingat lawa la u. benci la si Pantat Putih nie. untuk pendapat semue bagi sesiape yang membace ni, klw kenal dier jgn comment name dier panggil dier Pantat Putih.

thats all. hehes.

XD NADD

hello(:

so, i just got bored and decided to blog(:

i was just thinking on what am i. well its difficult as a guess to make change. i have decided to change back to the old me. was trying to bring memories, and new things. do you remember parkour? parkour is the freestyles an act of an animal, as most of it conclude barrier jumpes, cat leap , cat to cat and more. more of it search in youtube.

and yeahh. exams around the corner. dont like laa. have you ever thought your new friends are somehow shitty? that mole ass freak, i hate her. seriously, how can you act when you are writing something on your hand and that 'friend' pushes you. best act: ignore, dont talk , make face(: jeling jeling laa tuu, kan mate kau juleng baru tau.
my friend said " nadiah sux! but shes nice. " god damn ass. whats that meaning

thats all(:

exam):

just receive my exam time-table for sec 1. and exams are comming, i felt like running. hate exams, but still have to take it. being an N(A) student is fun. you know. i love my class(: this year 1N2 Hong Kah Sec, make history. We won the campfire champion and inter-class soccer. PE-head master announced that there will be another game comming. for girls only. the inter-class handball. which is smillar to captains` ball. that game which PE teacher conducted in PE lessons every thursday(:

my group, group 5. we fought with group 6 for friendly class match. the first week, the results are a tie. second week, my group wins, whehee. group 5 - group 6 ; 9 : 5 if not, my group can score better but i allways like to throw the small ball, which im supposed not to throw. grrr.

exams week.

• 3rd May thursday, mother tongue laguage (paper 1 & 2 ; seprately)
• 4th May Friday, science
• 7th May Monday, mathematics 2
• 8th May Tuesday, english language 2
• 9th May Wednesday, mathematics 1 & geography
• 10th May Thursday, i'm currently free(:
• 11th May Friday, had nothing on friday
• 14th May Monday, other level examinations. i'm consider free
• 15th Mat Tuesday, marking day. free(:
• 16th May Wednesday, Netball. body starts to ache again):

so, theres my exam time-table. it sucks but nice. i'm so damn bored now. got nothing to do. well, revision ,revision and revision. uh. hope i score well this time.

&im free on 14 may.

;any early plans?

wheehee

hello(:

morning strikes with my morning prayer. went to sleep back after that. woke up at 8:55am, just nice for my early saturday shows. refreshing. took my unusual breakfast. dont like uh. should i cut my hair? it seems difficult to make decisions. and yesterday, went to causway point with parents and sissy. bought home new stationaries and books. & shoes(: i like it. black in colour. black suits everything. uh. didn't bought home any new clothes wherelse, last week aunt bought me long sleeves white narrow shirt. going to put up my picture based on my style.

didn't use the camera for weeks. quite bored then. moms and dads phone are spoiled. wahaha. both brands are like the same brand. didn't feel good then. got food poisioning for the second time. shitty shitty. grandmoms at johore now. uh. bored bored.

editing pictures, i've got.



If I Had No Other Choice.



LOVING`

comments and rate okayy.

Im` sorry for all.
Before it ends.
& only if I could enjoy; 14 April.
; I had a bad day.

cherry):

it was around five when my friend and i was looking for this candy because cherry wasn't there.

cherry and her two little siblings allways played together but after her religious class, she did seem that the shoe rack was in mess and cherry and one of them wasn'nt there. those who knew about this story, i wonder if only you could understand. is like, so sad. i still remember when i the third time having a kitten for a week and it suddenly lost, for 3 or 4 days. she stayed long in my home.

as a human being, i feel love through her. a love for an animal. when she wasn't there, htere was silence, her voices gone and all.shed sllways did the extra mess, but now there was no mess to clean. if she think she have gave everything for thaat animal, may god bring their way up infront of your feet, looking at you. after 3 or 4 days of looking for her everynight at dirty drains, i've found her.it was a clear tought, someone helped me, but that someone cant come down to earth. whatever scars i've received on my body, i dont have any regrets. shes part of the family allready.

and theres a song for my beloved syabeel(: this is for syabeel, i hope you understand what i felt about you and everything about you. & to my kittie, meow~

thank god i've found you.

sports day.

i reach so early in the morning. around six plus. i get hooked up with my senior that time, he was the house master, after practising one lap at the clementi stadium, he took a break and played the song I won't see you tonight by Avenged Sevenfold.

so, as i told you the day will be hot, even they encouraged us to buy something at the small stall. i see that they are earning more money today. then the race and all. bored laa. then we all went home, it took 4 double decker 198 bus for hongkah people. i tell you the first and second bus was damn full. so it was like a transport bus for us.

oh-i'm soo lazy! bored. the seniors went crazy as, any malay upper sec walk pass Gamma, they'll say something laa. very entertaining uh. & disturbing runners lke " eh kecik! lagi siket tu! cepat argh! ah nanti da sampai finishing line gi sujud ahh." crapp.

im hungry byes!

I hate everything about you!

school drive me nuts.

so yeah. school drive me nuts. having problems here and there. and i'll just ignore. uh. tommorow is my school Annual Track & Field Meet. i'm the viewers. teacher says that we are going to be under the hot sun eventhough there was shlter. must be a hot day. got no Netball today. happy you know. it's been bad at school and i dont bother. friends are like shit.
they suck. seriously, i dont care whether they are reading this or not, the thing is you're the one i hated.

two weeks ago i try to wrote a letter to my friend whom i hate, instead of writing, i draw. i drew it on my notebook. first impression is hate. i just scribble the back page with my heart laa. then the second last page, there is marks of deep torn paper. as in you move your pen forward and backward. that note book has 5 marks. the marks represented on the book is for whom i hate. it has light deep cut, very light circle, 3 very deep cut which has left markings on the first page.
so i hope i didnt do that again.

an incident hapen, i was doing the last mark with my red pen, and when i just ended up, i wanted to cover the pen cap back to the tip of the pen but instead, i accidently poke my left hand index finger. will show the picture tommorow. and it bleeds. i printed the blood and remaining blood in the notebook. strange was, i was doing the mark last one for the person i hate the most and it happen. what is that trying to show?

missing tradeMARKS + Syabeel(: