(imy~ )

i went to sentosa today. and all i did, was to get my hands in the sand
like dough. i also did some of the sandy queh. ahaha~ got many non-singaporean.

i caught this little girl with bikini on. very cute. yellow polka dot bikini. then i do sand castle, this and that. and siloso got rocked by me, ahaha. then i go submerged my feet alone!
then decided to go home. get to vivo city by sentosa express. LJS for dinner.

got home by taking bus (bus 30).
on the way home, i and my sister bumped onto our parents. they are like going out, we are

like going home. felt tired.

because today, the planned was cancelled.

(senyuman lebarku)

ok, todays post.

i seriously got to type very fast.

i post because. i want to. Xp

i did nothing today, woke up late. and someone waited, hohoho. sorry.

im happy and sad. that i consider private. no one wanna know. and its over allready.

tomorow, need to cancel some of the thing in my blog. then maybe ill go out. with this stranger.

ahahaha. ni stranger cute oi. aku selalu cair~ heee. ok. maybe. will post again tomorow night.

bile die senyum. ohh ohh ohh. i consider, hottt ar eh. seriously and honestly.

i miss you alot. alot alot!

I don't want this moment
To ever endWhere every thing's nothing, without you
I wait here forever just to,
To see you smile'
Cause it's true
I am nothing without you

Through it all
I've made my mistakes
I'll stumble, and fall
But I mean these words

I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart, and soul
I'll hold on to this moment, you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

Thoughts read unspoken
Forever, and now
And pieces of memories
Fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so

I won't let this go'
Cause it's true
I am nothing without you

On the streets, where I walked alone
With nowhere to goHave come to an end

I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart, and soul
I'll hold on to this moment, you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

In front of you're eyes
It falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of you're eyesIt falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find

What you will find
What you will find
What you will find
what you will find

I don't want this moment
To ever end
Where everything's nothing, without you

I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart, and soul
I'll hold on to this moment, you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart, and soul
I'll hold on to this moment, you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

was this the day, i got to remember those times i had.

with you singing under the void deck after school last year. damn~ that means alot. and the song.

(story of how i liked the song)

every night, i wasted batteries. listening to my sick mp3. i fall asleep after a song or two, then i realised, my mp3 beside me, i just grab the ear plug and plug in. i dont know why i plug in. then the time i plug in, this particular song came to the chorus part. then i played the song over again. over and over again, till now.

the song tittled: with me.

i wasnt quite okay with my school surroundings.
i never thought. id will find a friend like you
i never felt like before
i never sing with a friend like i never did with you.
i only see you smile from pictures.
or ill never see you smile like you did. cause we meet rarely.
but.
i remember, that graduation night i walked beside you and said something.
on how we used to, to talk about fathiah.
we use to meet at the usual place after school.
(all of these make me so emotional)
im now playing the song while typing these
i know.
that things have changed since then.

song: Yellow Submarine
by: The Beatles
year published: 1962
influence by: my untie

damn it. i want many things. well, i just found out little bastard is sometimes cute. ill post a video later. (in the video) she get mad when the microphone didnt turn up. and the hand, is my hand. i disturb her.

i'll get an award and im in the top 10. teacher asked whether my parents wanna come. i said no. im not proud on getting top 10 or whatever, im just feeling satisfy with myself. i knew my parents wouldnt come to see 'their' child getting an award walking on the stage. i felt down myself. crying. did my parents work too much and left their child school updates behind? what they wanted more.
im just like a child from the children who grew up with no parents.
mum just got home, and i wanna publish this and close the window, i dont want she to see my personal things without my permission.
bye.

went jalan raye today. did alot of things today. the best house, ashikin. friend put in two asam in my cocktail. i took it and put it back to the big bowl of the cocktail. and laugh. and then.yan, put one strange lime green asam to the kuah soto. style~~ i get inspired by the cat face. its like soooo, perfect. shes lying on my thighs. and i bet she went dizzy as the flash captured her picture. shes my friend cat. and also went to my enemys house today. i was like wooo~ this is your house? i still remember, p.e. we played scoccer street, ten girls.
five vs five : wearing slash vs. not wearing slash. she wanna act terror. kick the small ball like a cripple. i scored one. she scored none. you dont have skills, say it. dont try to act like you have. cause you'll never.

p/s:
chinese-eyes. satu bulan da tak jumpe. upcomming 5 months.
still loving you; nadd.

selamat hari raye maaf zahir dan batin,

kecuali orang itu yang curi telepon bimbitku.

kepada pencuri: langkahlah mayat aku jika engkau hendak mengembalikannya
informasi anda: nadiah khalid ialah cucu nenek yang pertama untuk hasilkan ketupat dibuat sendiri(:
hari 131007: nadiah di malaysia tolong nenek.
untuk, david haziq: 101007, ahaha.
untuk maisawah: last long with zulll.
untuk amani: aku rindu kau maot.
untuk liyana: kau semakin lawa.
untuk syuhada: aku cinte kau.

selamat hari raya dari nadiah, yang maha bising.

does stealing makes you feel good? base on first tought, most of the human minds says yes. but does it get any better? you'll will go around stealing again after stealing once. because you cant get enough. i steal before, and then i want to steal again. its true, it dont get any better until im done. i rather use phone cards then handphones.

using handphones are big disadvantages to me. first, you need to pay. second, if you lost them, you cant get another one. third, its more easier to prank call people using phone cards. (: fourth, you not need to call your parents allways. fifth, you can allways renew (buy) another phone card after another. theres no need to hide, shame.

i wish i could. i wish i could find the one who stole the phone. then slit a pointy sharp 8cm long, radius of 3cm thick to the culprit right and left arm. then use 19 safety pin to pin the mouth. shave the skin. threaten the person like i never before. but im okayy with it.

when any feelings come, or go or anything that made me feel uneasy, i'll just need to sing if i have to, i'll just need to hear and watch a bottle of All The Same - Sick Puppies. the only way to heal by just listening to something that i think really heals my heart. okayy, i dont know what i talking. i'll have the power if i have skill then i'll have the will. no power, no will.
thats is all.

i get angry easily when people steal my money because they have lost theirs and want to blame me taking it. so what if its on my bed with your wallet on top?
you stupid?! then the money lost blame me.
bodo. it wasnt me. it wasnt me. it wasnt me.
you took my $20 last month without permission.
i kept quiet. i kept quiet alot of times. the when i ask you whether you got take my money you said no. you should really know, your'e a disloyal child. i detest you.
father wanna put you in the girls home. but grandmother objected.
you stole $400 from father money box and admit it after 5 months.
you got your stupid boyfriend that dosen't help at all. even though your'e with him for 6 years or whatever, but when comes to marriage, you people only last less than a month.
your 1 year relationship dosent worth la. you think your house is a hotel?
can come home at 3 in the morning?
as a sister, i hated you much. now is the fasting month i cant do much i only can type. im telling you, go away. go stay another house, go far far away. and stop wearing my jeans and clothes. im not over with you ass. dont make up my mind for me to tell your deepest secret.
you fcuking asshole. go away from my parents. you are not a sister to me, a stranger. so if you die, we wont see you.

me and music

today. was the first day of fasting month thats all.
puase, puase.

today. i scolded my indian co-form teacher.
" oi! mrs sammy! drink drink only ar! bodo, dont pity ah?! " -aku slack(:

i felt like eating this afternoon, but he took me out to study.
-a trip to the library.

my mom never work, and she is driving me nuts.
"nadiah! mop the floor! clean your stuff! "

and now, i want hari raya.
aku desperate nak $$

took my cat out from the drain.
meow meow meow~

when music accompany you around the school.
and, i dont get caught.

a total student.
6cm high socks above ankle.

i pulled my hair like going to be bold.( in maths lesson )
because maths do kill you.

so, remember about the times i was crazy about oldies? now no more. so oldies are inthe years like, okayy i dont know how to say. im only telling you that im in love with older song today. omg. whats with me. you know the old old old old years where they create music with guitars all but with a slack voice. for me nice ah. i sot.

if you were to find me swinging my head and move like little mary left to right to left and so on, thats nadd. you know, i cut my hair, if after bathing i look like a butch. if its dried up, i looked like mods. whatt only. and i wanna meet Linda Scott soul. im her fan.

oh linda oh linda. da tada da da da da tada... lets swing people.

the day where i feel in love
( love love love love)
with the year 1962
- with
Linda Scott.

96.8 FM

so. i was just browsing the dictionary that consists of 1,000,000,000GB. also, includes 27 alphabets and 9 single digit numbers. abc 123. you know the letter 'r'. r is for radio. ah okay. that gives me an idea to talk about radio for today. just imagine people dont hear to songs, but they listen to radio. its actually not bad. as for me. theres many to talk about. i dont know what im talking, but let just continue with whats happening around the radio.

Singapore. a multi-cultural country(island) have 12 radio stations. if you dont know what the hell is radio stations, go to somewhere that got sand, then burry your head or separate a connected antenna and poke it in your ear both ear, and from there, you'll be able to read messages(sms) from the president to a girl in geylang or even a message from little miss bodo or miss swan. cool stuff. and i cut the subject and continue. there is 12 radio stations in Singapore.

have you people heard of this 96.8FM? once you get in that radio station, try to follow what they're saying as in, your an echo.
you know i tried that before. i thought it was the coolest thing to do. after following what they're saying, i felt like a dark girl wearing sari, even though i tried very hard to echo.

thats for today, all for one word, radio.

okayy.
i love teachers day. i love, her, her, her, her, her, her and him and meow.
i am tired, lazy, happy, sad, listening to a song.
today is, 4th of september. is three months. no-one birthday.
i wanted, a handphone, another new jeans, more tops, not to be in (TAF).
i went to, ntuc, sheng shiong, a shop nearby.
i did, my house work, kiss my cat, and kiss you.
and now i am offically comparing my, " ( thethethe nadd pose ) " ok. alittle bit difference, but still. very very very original. this is my shortest post this month.

okayy its done.
(sudah habes)

NADD

so, im the happy girl, and whatever happens happy still. i failed history test. i passed my math test. im sick because of bad weather. over the week ends, i've made my own craft for my teacher, the previous year. theres a video below. i really love primary schools. i mean the people there are much better than secondary schools, espcially classmates.

i knew you guys remember how my behaviour is. but not now, im fused. weak. im anti-social. my-oh-my. im just me. 80 more hour(s) to teachers day. and have fun watching the video.

so okayy. i'll be typing out the letter which i dedicated to some of my classmates.
and i'll be very kind enough not to state their full name down there in the letter.
i think this letter explain much eventhough it dosent consists of 360 words.

girl, you, got attitude.
i dont know what else to say.
or perhaps i should give you a tutorial lesson.
theres plans in my palms. i better dont type it out.
it'll be more than 360 words.
so okayy. so you got long hair.
you must remember me all of your lives.
and so, maybe i'll shave your head, wouldn't it'll be unforgetable enough?
its your unforgetable haircut of yours.
i have enough facing the hell of those teeth, hair, name, butt and all.

fuck ( childish ) immatured kids.
they, will never grow.

dedicated to you.

finish, im so bored. gonna have to sleep, please.
please, pity my tired ass.

nestball was sucky ystd.
a ball hits my right part of the cheek, and good thing, my right thumb cant be bent.
yay~ school was shit.
wrote a note to friends. will type it out someday.
got no mood.
okayy.

i went to the library just now, then got this indian girl. she pull my pencilbox to a cetain distance to attract attention then say " shhh.. " wtf la. i was like jaw dropped. you should really see how my reaction was. grr.

sometimes i feel, stupid. maybe a dummy. like a piece of shit perhaps. damn. just like i once said in my previous previous previous post, im feel like im just being fucked. maybe if i got a chance to immigrate to another school, i'll be miles away from my hometown. and to some things, they just dont get it right. damn. i hate my classmates. they suck.

nadiah love stewie griffin.

shop.

so, yes it is, i went to tanjung pinang for a short trip. the market was like a rat house, huge people with small place. omg. get me out of here. came to the hotel and went out. so there was 9 people. one baby. two children. 6 adults. two rooms. two king bed. one bed for male, the other for female. then, that night we went karaoke. i feel small. i was like doing the extra extra voice, so so so out of tune. gee, karaoke was fun.

so the next day, woke up at 9 went to the rat market. i walked straight to a shopping mall, because i knew the money was with me, i scanned the shop and bought 2 things, black jeans and t-shirt. i bargained till the price cant go any further down. yeah! ( after three hour(s) )
the driver picked us up and we went to Ramayana. and bought a jacket, skulls version. the skulls were in pink, the background in white.

that night i went to play pool. 3 rounds. and and and, i knew how to use rupiah notes allready. you know, why must people make such a confuse out of money, like dollars and rupiah. whatt only.

okayy, im done.

on holiday.

i'll be moving to another island. not far not near, but i still need my passport. packed my luggage that is small and ment for 2 persons. hope i enjoy. so, i woke up at 8 in the morning. all because of my excitedness. if not i am gonna wake up at9 or 10, i guess by that time they leave me at home allready. so, its a family trip.

grannnys following and told us ( translated to english )
"make sure tomorow wake up after morning prayer ok?" god, she thinks im nuts.
what to rush, the first boat is at 1230.
i love my blog song. makes me shake legs. and the bass guitar, girls with long skirts, the beach, shades.

okayy, i need to rush, havent bathe. so i got to bathe. they've just called us said come here now. i was like ah?! okok. ok people of the world, i need to go into another island for a short trip. blog will be on a a short hiatus.
love you.

42 years.

Today, the nation is celebrating 42 years of living, Singapore.
Singapore, unique, small, cute, and busy.
Singapore has it, secure security, life, leisure and living.
( i dont know what am i talking )
And also, ASEAN Day, NS40 obviously National Day.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE,
YOU JUST TURNED 42!

today tuesday

i am now blogging. hohoho. i feel weak. like im just been fucked. so, i ate hotdog rolls with chilli for breakfast. i came to school today. english teacher didnt come to school today, she is sick. i guess, im getting bad. common test, 13/40. so, now i do feel like typing many many many words. friends suck. im feeling like dead.

so, i just receive a record from the school head department that im a murder. theres many case right now. eventhough after recess, the quadrangle. i kill small ants that is very innocent. what they did was, they walked in front of me and walk around. i use my fingers and took them away from land to my palm. i was like, omg, where your eyes? stupidity. im talking alone.

i enjoyed the sunset today. till 7.03 the sunset was done. so called, like not sunset allready. what if blood vessels burst? eeew~
mrs. bay my principle rocks my mind body soul. ok, so, i till here lah.

the day.

it was wednesday. got netball.
my bag wasn't that heavy. didn't bring my sport shoes.
siti, ruby and ruzana stayed behind and waited. i was different today.
i just experienced my best netball training day out of the other days. best best.
i hate one of the senior. she didn't came today. i hate her. today was freedom.
i hate this pompuan keling. allways give excuse. nanti mati kene bakar, yay!~
i laughed alot today. only bring $3 to school, left $1.50
spent $1.50 for 12 hours in school. i can survive!

i called azielah by her glam father name: muhammad ali.
mine: datok k.
shairah: sameon.
ruzana: ja'afar
ashikin: roslan.
i like the way it is. ((:

i was very happy today. and i dont know why.
it was like yay!~
im clean now, very very.
ok, thats it.
im just very happy today(:

eh keling siak, gi mati la. fatin, its better if you dont exist.

.......... i miss you alot alot alot...........

monday morning.

ok.
its monday morning. youth day(: received some stuffs from school, cool laa.
and damn! primary school student aren't schooling. grrr. teachers day comming soon.
i dont know whether i should bring something or not. nevermind.
i just ate one wafer stick (oreo). nice sei.
this morning i accompany my cat when shes sleeping, she smells good. i bathe for her yesterday. not easy you know!~ she tried to run, but my hands were too good for her.
so, shes hell clean now. can still smell the shampoo.
shes now suntenning her body XD
i got history, malay, english, maths homework not done. yay~
ok, bye.