14 days countdown.

(thats my child? why not? )

lits like 11:11AM now. i dont know what to do. ive been busy with my english assignment. and i wonder if theres any mothertongue homework, i felt there is but i got no idea whats it about. wth nadiah. you're busy with your english assignment when its only like 13th december. my sec3 books are not purchased yet. still i dont feel like buying, i must be crazy(pt.1) i hate to hide my music playlist actually. (lol) ill reveal it later. confem lagu bnyk merepek. i was awaken by my sister singing inside the toliet. i wish she wouldnt sing because every word entered my hears is like im entering hell ochestra. and also soon will be linking people bcause imma soo bad, people link me i never link them hehhehhehheh~
just live your live ayyayyyayyyyy you steady chasin' that paper!~

my living room from here looks like a pathway to heaven.

caption: a picture of you and your ex on your friendster.

im into one of beyonce, neyo, christin millan songs. wierd isnt? if i were a boy by beyonce. us against the world by christina millan. mad by neyo. ok ok i know, this first two lines are like whatever. if you see me with this impression on my face, it means, somethings not right. granny bought me little miss naughty long pants for my bedtime, sweet kan die? theres like a green overall, bold and capital of "little miss naughty" all over, and little miss naughty herself. its really comfortable too.

does anyone want to be a sexologist when they grow up?

i like it when my face looks red in color. this is the nice version of me.
this is what i am before seven; when the angels went home, after seven.
ill put on my glasses, bcause i cant see.
this is what i am if you can see.

(0.0)

by the second picture, you can see that its not even pm. its still am. look to the bright side ey. this is so nonsensetriangleoligical.

i own blogger, livejournal, myspace, msn(?) so heres how the system goes.
blogger: more to daily lives
livejournal: more to how i feel
myspace: im into music 24/7
msn(?): private /even more private

sent and fetch A today. took 30 home (: the bus is freakin cold. im wearing A's sweater on now, and it feels warm. having flu at the same time, i dont like the part when the hingus wanna come out. its like tersumbat with tissue inside. i miss school. today is world aids day, what to do? its been awhile that the internet connection is slow, fwckit. im lack of respecting myself, someone, please send me to an overseas boot camp for teenagers, its a great pleasure. im into songs that put me to sleep. an estimated of 4 months to my birthday (7feb), ahahahaha.

recently, the new book by Sue Townsend is out. im a begging my parents to buy me this book for me. they said it was too expensive, deep down i cried. i know it cost around 30bucks, but at least a book. i hate it when they say 'next time'. damn, im dreaming for a book.

dear mom,
i just want a storybook by Sue Townsend really really bad.
its okay if you think its too expensive.
i can wait for next time(or never)
anyway i love you, mom.

REVEAL, REBORN, THE NEW!

its like now or never, im giving my old long lost blog new look. i miss my blog. im like in the library alone cause, i was from a box in england and they send me here to play the internet and give a new look to my blog. its unbelieveable that im blogging and posting a post,

( posting a post, wth) i dont really enjoy this year. im being like cockup student that dont wanna learn. and i m looking forward to whatever outing friends have, is like im at home all the time. i hate meeting the same people that i know will not like me as a friend instead, they take advantage of me. siddenly i miss primary school. i want to work but i dont want to. and i know you dont understand. im excited to give my blog a new look. ahahaha, its like a reborn from the past few months, not years.

god, bless me.

so, i will now announce you, im updating my blog on the 20 second (22nd ) of march 2008. today is saturday and i decide to end my religious class early instead of 4.30. went queensway and had spaghetti with meatballs additional of french fries and cheese cake & coke. nice okay. then went home, on the way home, we laughed like ^%$&*9*&)&*( . i wear a dress today. and i was expecting myself to wear high heels for the first time with friends. i wanna try new things.

my ca1 results are just disappointing. english for 63, grade 4. malay for 56, grade 5.

mathematics for 37, failed. science for 54, grade 5. geography for 43, failed.

homecons for 77 and art for 75, sigh. i get to sit with someone historical to me, jasvin. sigh. nevermind la. and i got a problem, ive got guitars at home but dont know how to play, 0oh god help me. and i need to improve on studies, again help me.

and i have moved. http://nadio.livejournal.com

meowwwwww

new post. okay, mind me if theres many typo errors okayy? because my cat is sleeping infront of the compuper screen and i cant really see what im typing, sebok oi die tapi cute. so school kinda suck because of the secondary ones. many minah and very the perangai.

and my studies are drowning. i want to plan my life+future. yet what i wanna be when i grow up is still unclear.

nadiah's life/future. :]

- secondary life, get my n & o level pass: 17 years old.
- then study/temporary job like mad: 20+ years old.
- maybe a holiday to somewhere... (:

6554, mak aku datang.

crawling towards the sun Xp

absent in school today, coz of some reasons. i went to jurong lake park yesterday and jurong greens at night with my sister, then got this thing that needs to people to stand on and will twist like never before, i felt giddy after that. that night when i went to sleep, i still can feel that im still there twisting. then the next day didnt turn up at school Xp.

then woke up today, then online, then bathe at12.45. then online again, then watch tv, then sleep again, like 2 1/2 hours. then go shop buy something, then see 4 new born kittens and the mother. then went home, then eat, then online, then chat with sol. then i think sol abit mepek~ Xp. i still got geo and homeecons project. ok i dont care. detention pon detention la. dont care. (:

sol can blow with me~

hello

on the tuesday , my friend had collected 3 useless caning from mr wee(dm) because he said, its not that painful, so the current mistake he did, he'll do it again. tsk tsk. then i got abg. berg's email address, ^^. then today, i bring my math&sci which is not in the timetable today, cool or what. ms ang, gonna catch me about sci workbook, who cares but if never hand in by tomorrow, we'll get detention(do homework) untill 5. then thaqif tell me about abg berg when they walk pass the mosque, abg berg go prutt prutt, somehow he said the sound currrrrly, hahaha~ not gonnna cut my hair till june thats my aim, i dont care. did english compre test today about elephant that is ravaging home of this particullar village and he receive 3 shots from this man. poooor thing.

rusty balls of yours

on breezy and hot monday, my friend just came back. yeah so valentines day we people cannot celebrate but we can celebrate friendship day ah eh. and so, i am bored. i reaCH home today at like 4 because, i go take my lunch in school then went home. homecons was gerek, because i did a great job on the stupid bag ((: mine is sewing, the another is cooking. today the cook this dish named kima, first thing first, the vulgarity, kimak. hahaha. its smillar to curry. ok kimak. today i had ice-cream. and i tie my hair. and im back with my maths. algebra+fraction= ( O 0 ) piggggggyyyy~

mak buat muke, tak boleh angkat sei.

i stayed at home, searching for treasure, and found this old shades, got brand also, name Ray-Ban? not so sure la. still in good condition, then i like go wear it, test test laa kan, i was like, mak datok, longgar la sak. then showed my mum, then i say." dunie gelap eh mak."

then my mum like make the [ -____-'' ] face.

then showed my sis this video on youtube, before that we're laughing while watching mr bean, mind the baby then after part 2, i showed her this video, then, in the middle of the video, she cried. i was like ( omgomgomgogmomgomgomg) like that, but i kept quiet. i remember when i watch that video, i felt like crying, but hold ah eh, ask me more if you wanna watch it, it isnt scary, i swear to god, it is not. ok, bbbbbyebyebyebye~

it was since a week before i waited for your voice to pickup the call from me.

& electronica is actually nice.

TYPO

ignore typo errors, just fill it in with a great word will do.

my 7 february let me down.
well, its suppose to be a great day for me eventhough im overseas. but i just dont feel that im special. um. yeah thats the point. those who give comments on my friendster i just hope you mean it, if you then i guess its no use od giving me comments anymore.

since i came in malaysia at 6 february, nighttime, i thought something was going to haappened to me on the seventh, it came out with nobody telling me about my birthday, only when my sister watched television and saw the date list on the lcd screen. oh my. i do felt like crying but, its over. thats it.

when age rises, the things that you normally do when i was a kid vanishes. life is not the same anymore. but i dont expect it to change this much. what can i do? cry? ohh no. im holding my tears right now while typing. like nothing can cheer me up. oh. what a day.

geography sucks.

say hello say hello.

okayy, today i went to watch free show in my classroom with my dm and vp. watching two boys being canned, cool or what? then got homwork this that. failed my math test again, im lazy. from 13 to 15 marks over 40. (:

after that, went home at 2.30 because its tuesday. tomorow gonna do class decoration like fzuk. because it'll take a long time as other school is going home at 10.30/9.30 but, us 11.30 oh damn. shoot/toot!

ok bye, im waiting for you to get home, and this is three days later.

lets fly

(did i just fzcking tie my hair?)

Look at me, ive grown.

That picture has an L/M Body size plus a shoe of size eight and height of 1.60. She probably entertains herself. Away at 6 February after 7.30 or hours before, overseas till friday. Fzck. I dont like mother tongue. And my maths is like papers, my pen is like fire. Once I write something on it, my pen will destroy and fire will lick it fast. Maths test here and there, damn.

when youre away~

Catch Fish for Javelin.

I went to Jurong Lake Park alone today, cycling for more than how many kilometeres ah, i dont count. And I met a lost turttle, first time laa kan i see turttle, then i carry him/her to a bush, because its drizzling, pity pity. then i met lizard j-walking infront of me. then just now, in school I met my regular friends.

perempuan,
kau pernah sedar tak yg kau ni tgh
makan orang lain nyer rezeki?
kau pikir kau siape nk mkn orang nye makanan?
mentang mentang tak ade orang tego kau tak brentikan kerje bodo kau pe?
kau pikir kau siape?
kau pikir kite ni sume slave kau pe sak?
nak lipat skirt pon tak agak agak pasal skirt kau londeh je, abeh pki bag kecik step bende kau sikit
je, da bawak fail, abes tu nk suro kawan kau pegang kan pe?

mari sini mkn makanan aku ah siak, aku sound kau rabak rabak.
aku tau aku tak lawa ah kan, dngr dngr kau lawa pe,
lawa mcm bunge ros yg da mati. kau ngan adek kau same je.
aku sedar perangai aku macam sial, pikir perangai kau bagos sangat pe?
pikir due kali ah pompouan. nk jamma mknan
orang pon tak agak agak, air botol yg 3/4 boleh tadi 1/2 pe?
kau siape sak.
son of a bitch. dont ever think i dont know what you are trying to do, fucker.
cb.

And people, im going to make my nuttest decision ever. i decided to keep my hair long. i'll be not cutting my current hair till june. I exercise at home, and i sweat like how i was when pe end. anything contact me at my email address. then dot dot dot. im gona sleep, im tired of exercising today, cycling, running, helping mommy. heeee.
say hello say hello mates!

so, hello january.

firstly, i didnt attend school because i dont want to go. i am so, gonna die, if i come to school today. my teacher will send my name to dm, then dentention? wtf. ok. then i spring clean my room, only only my room. then mom got jealous. ahah. i even cleaned my bed sheet myself, then i dry clean outside at 11, and it was dry at around 3 or 4. (:

did some random blowing sessions with sarah. when i see those bubbles in the air, i was like, whoaaaaaaaa. then they pop, then i blow again. sigh, if only you were there. theres this father with his wife and their kid, watching at us. ahah. i want another new bottle of bubble, that i can hang around my neck. i dont care! ( ...... )

welcome sec ones, minahs as per normal, and some freaking people. new peers from indonesia. coool laa siol. and sitting partner, is sooo smalll though hes in the soccer, aahaha.people people.
ok byebye.

i was honest, im telling you, im sad.

i wasnt so happy of what i found out that someting. its isnt the tpoic about people, is about me. im so sad now. and wanna talk to someone, i dont know who. ask me in msn of you wanna know, its seriously confidential. my parents havent know it yet, i found it out more on the internet. shock shock shock. seriously not happy, but i got to live with it. oh god, less it less less, and gone. please. wasnt happy, not happy, sad.

piano and guitars on music lessons

school is back, and i lost a stack of literature holiday homework. i probably love guitars, even now the finger tips still hurts. i bought the yamaha piano pencil case. ok nevermind. i even set targets in mind of what i wanna do/achieve/prove. i want to be the top 7/6 in 2008. i make sure i get my electric guitar when im 16. and i must do well in history. create own band is one of my featured dreams.

i must look for my clone in the first day of school.
i must never be late for school.
i must never forget to biring termometer to school everyday.
i must never hate history.
i must never give up learning guitar.
i must not go out unless theres a CCA, guitar lessons, mug, or waste some time, heeeeeee~
i must not even hate people even hidayah.
i wanna be the best english talker in class.
i wanna be the best of the best out of mylself.
common eh, i know theres more. and ill continue blow bubbles. (:

im naive, i know. im so naive. hahaha.

bubbles pops and ill blow bubbles again.

damn, i dont like the way god set up things for me, his test are too heavy. im a girl, leading not so wonderful life. home, mother said that im useless. father said, something that i found im sentive to. sister said, im stupid because of something that cause the whole family to blame on me. outdoor, im shy to go out, because i aint preety and people will say things. classmates, i only save 2 contact numbers instead of 5. because i know i will never happen to remember all, and its no use too.

im an anti-social kid who stays up online and make friends. its much better. i mean they cant see me, and ill still stay up normal. sigh. i know i dont need things that i wanted, like others do. until my parents set up food on the table for me, from there is enough allready.

only stupid people says that he/she is rich. no one is rich. if someone reading this, and wanna argue, go ahead im just fine as hell. btw, $1.10 bubble bottle is fun. i got two. theres one that i can touch, and one that pops when meet the skin of my fingers.

christmas.

i watched Echanted today. and the last week of holidays are all about free online movies. so today, i watched hooligans. i mean the movie is tittled hooligans. and i just wish i can zap things in a snap because some irritating chinese who probably are not christians are making noises with the bicycle bells like bodo. in the 20's century, negative images is the main criteria. oh shit. and movies are bad. because they are infecting kids young minds faster then bacteria. ok, im done.

i hate hidayah
and love you

i decide to blog.
i went jp with maisarah and my sister today.
suddenly, i remember things, i supose not to.
and i like cry, on my guitar. cause i was searching for tabs.
ok thats all. damn.

hello sunshine

(i chase the dark clouds away)

the sun came out today, finally.
when the sun is shining, some stupid grey clouds are following.
i get frustrated with guitar strings. but since i love them, i sacrificed cutting my left hand nails just for the sake of the guitar. (i cut till like seriously short nails)
school is comming, and i must start mugging.
school, ah yeah, secondary two, were gonna learn how to play guitar, but i want to learn in advanced(: you know what i mean. i got some very cheerful indie songs to cheer. nice laa.
and i wanna look out for the best school bag for 2008. and on the first day of school, im gonna lookout for my clone, sec 1. wahaha. exciting kan.
and liyana, just come for this week stupud religious class. and bring hp, not books. i rule the rules.
and ayie, dont let me describe donuts to you.
and sarah, tabs tabs tabs tabs!
and amani, amani biler free, nak plan untok outing(:
and shahirah, gile korean Xp.
and syuhada, pwwweeeety!
and trademarks, another outing comming up.

firstly, i need to tell you people of trademarks that, i cant upload the pictures because the camera is not with me. ill update it somehow. 5 days without update. i thought of closing this blog down because i dont post much. probabbly depends on my mood. tell me good reasons why i should close this blog down or dont close this blog. (:
christmas is comming in 15 days fast. oh god, christmas mcm best gitu. Xp. and also got to lookout for " go to school material ". and im so excited to see the secondary one pupils. hahaha. gurantee lots of minahs. i ending this post, i told you im not gonna post much. ok? bye.

jealousy takes place whenever i see your msn private message.

i just got back, and now im blogging. the trip was shit. because many things happened, all starts from me. bought some things there. im lazy to post some pictures now. tomorow going out with the trademarks. oh weeeee.
i feel: stupid/angry/jealous/dead.