hello sunshine

(i chase the dark clouds away)

the sun came out today, finally.
when the sun is shining, some stupid grey clouds are following.
i get frustrated with guitar strings. but since i love them, i sacrificed cutting my left hand nails just for the sake of the guitar. (i cut till like seriously short nails)
school is comming, and i must start mugging.
school, ah yeah, secondary two, were gonna learn how to play guitar, but i want to learn in advanced(: you know what i mean. i got some very cheerful indie songs to cheer. nice laa.
and i wanna look out for the best school bag for 2008. and on the first day of school, im gonna lookout for my clone, sec 1. wahaha. exciting kan.
and liyana, just come for this week stupud religious class. and bring hp, not books. i rule the rules.
and ayie, dont let me describe donuts to you.
and sarah, tabs tabs tabs tabs!
and amani, amani biler free, nak plan untok outing(:
and shahirah, gile korean Xp.
and syuhada, pwwweeeety!
and trademarks, another outing comming up.

firstly, i need to tell you people of trademarks that, i cant upload the pictures because the camera is not with me. ill update it somehow. 5 days without update. i thought of closing this blog down because i dont post much. probabbly depends on my mood. tell me good reasons why i should close this blog down or dont close this blog. (:
christmas is comming in 15 days fast. oh god, christmas mcm best gitu. Xp. and also got to lookout for " go to school material ". and im so excited to see the secondary one pupils. hahaha. gurantee lots of minahs. i ending this post, i told you im not gonna post much. ok? bye.

jealousy takes place whenever i see your msn private message.

i just got back, and now im blogging. the trip was shit. because many things happened, all starts from me. bought some things there. im lazy to post some pictures now. tomorow going out with the trademarks. oh weeeee.
i feel: stupid/angry/jealous/dead.

fuck you people

(look like a teacher, shit)

im off to port dickson for family outing/holidays.

ill not be taking my whatever shit religious oral exams on 3 & 4 december.

ill not be blogging, only tag. tag here and maybe i can reply when im there.

ill be missing my msn buddies/webcam partners/lame assholes/all

im away starting on sunday 2 december. yay~

malaysia is damn holy unsafe. hahaha

):

i saw your clone today.
i didnt smile today
i get scolded for not doing house chores
i watched a korean series
i felt dull today
i played with onions
i get my second letter from NUH.
i got many things to declare in mind.
i tell a friend of mine about this boy pants is currently looking super thight
im not in the mood yet chatting/blogging

ok bye.

why im bored.

i dont find myself active in any activities. im just waiting for my next family outing to port dickson. im bored because, i got nothing to do, i do alot of things to do but those just suit me at all. this holiday just get me outdoor, not indoor. i hate being at home, alone with my cat. because in my family, im in the second and im like an orphnage kid. house chores is given out unfairly. i got to do my stupid religious PSLE today. very shit. i came late and i got to sit just behind the door. cool or what siak sit behind the door. i just rock the house with my music. and i lost my specs twice a year. ahahaha. these olidays, many of my friends who wear contact lens catch an eye infection which is obviously due to the contact lens, scary sia.

im feeling : so potek/bored/mad/unhappy/happy/excited/stupid/go gugugaga

i'll roar right in your face till your skin is gone of your face with just my roar. (laughs)

and "oh! we are watching, animal porn Xp"

redbull for breakfast.

im so bored, i did some change onto my blogskin. people im seriously bored. and oh, about the trademarks outing, there will be 2 different days. one in november, one in december.

November.
avenue: jurong east

December.
avenue: town/bugis/esplanade

the date is not listed down because im in desperate need for your phone numbers, i mean any numbers that i can contact you. thankyou.
& carpark+animals(cat species)+music = me
idk why my nearby carpark have inspired me.
i love cats from the bottom of my heart.
music heals you know, even dangdut. ahahaha.

actually, psle is not a difficult paper. (: when i grow up, i wanna own my own lion/cats/white lion. but lion is dangerous. imagine theres some kids comming to my house for hari raya, and possible the lion is hungry because the lion cannot wait for the ketupat to cook, and decided to eat up some irritating/innocent small kids with baju kurung on. sigh. okay. i need to go bathe. i dont want to be a part of the CK, its actually cine kopet

people. nadd love dinosaurs, that also includes barney the purple dinosaur.
lets use our imagination people!

Albertosaurus = nadd/(timon)

I would like to represent Albertosaurus as myself because it is big and tall like me. big and tall like me oi. Albertosaurus is a canivore. meat eater(: It was a bipedal (walking on two legs) creature, with tiny two-fingered hands, and a massive head containing dozens of large sharp teeth. siakk, dozens siol. The first specimen discovered was a partial skull discovered in 1884. that is way way way way behind.

Maiasaura = sarah/(taugeh)

Currently because of the name. macam name maisarah laaa.

i'll be doing the rest tomorow or tonight. okayy. just wait.

-nadd love dino. dino dino dino wooooo!

im all alone in this room, i wanna run run away very far. very far like six feet under.
i messed up. im condamed. alone in this room, with the same clothes same shit attitude, with nothing to do, i wanna dig my grave. ive sacrificed much, but all those dosent worth. what worth? blood? life? ive tried so hard ive tried so hard to believe. but i dont. why. why. im one unfaithfull girl believe me.

dont trust me, im a liar. -once a liar, allways a liar.
dont be friends with me, im anti-social. -true.
dont follow me, im lost in this. -life
dont.
im now a fish living outside, without water. -im suffering
im like a girl who wake up and found herself in heaven. -wait for my death certificate.
damn.
i just wished i can go back time and delete you. delete. -like i dont know you.
and wished i have you earlier. and tottal it up to a year. - monthsary.
and a thousand needles poke to my eyes, so i can believe what i see
if this is life, i knew i wont live long.

(baby grace)

ok. i got nothing to blog about today. yesterday went to slack with a couple of friends. then went home. the picture above shows a skecth of baby grace, baby grace is not her real name though. my first impression when i saw, i was like. ohhhhh~
the face was quite scary. the fisherman who found this a week ago said that, " we will all pray that someone will identify this girl." find out more in www.msnbc.msn.com and search out for baby grace.
and this post will end with a short conversation.

apit s.w.a.t. : eh, kau tau aku mengirap ah dengan apek semalam.
iyan: ah? (laughs) asal sak?
apit s.w.a.t. : aku tau ar badan aku besar. die boleh tanye aku gini siol, "lu punya baju lu tempah pe?!" tu part aku da mcm, nk dudok atas kepale tu apek je.
iyan: ok baek.(laughing)
apit s.w.a.t. : die tanye aku lagi siol, "lu punya stokin pon lu tempah pa?!"
iyan: pit, da ah, cukop laa. aku da nk terbuang air ni, kau nmye pasal laa!

today.

• i had religious class. seriously boring. i talked with liyana about trademarks outing. funny okay.
• trademarks, bile mau jumpe?
• today i eat breakfast(:
• my neighbour moved.
• is fourth of november.
• i bet i grow shit at 5
• listening to we're coming back - Cock Sparrer
• im really really bored.
• my leg is tired

ok done.

(imy~ )

i went to sentosa today. and all i did, was to get my hands in the sand
like dough. i also did some of the sandy queh. ahaha~ got many non-singaporean.

i caught this little girl with bikini on. very cute. yellow polka dot bikini. then i do sand castle, this and that. and siloso got rocked by me, ahaha. then i go submerged my feet alone!
then decided to go home. get to vivo city by sentosa express. LJS for dinner.

got home by taking bus (bus 30).
on the way home, i and my sister bumped onto our parents. they are like going out, we are

like going home. felt tired.

because today, the planned was cancelled.

(senyuman lebarku)

ok, todays post.

i seriously got to type very fast.

i post because. i want to. Xp

i did nothing today, woke up late. and someone waited, hohoho. sorry.

im happy and sad. that i consider private. no one wanna know. and its over allready.

tomorow, need to cancel some of the thing in my blog. then maybe ill go out. with this stranger.

ahahaha. ni stranger cute oi. aku selalu cair~ heee. ok. maybe. will post again tomorow night.

bile die senyum. ohh ohh ohh. i consider, hottt ar eh. seriously and honestly.

i miss you alot. alot alot!

I don't want this moment
To ever endWhere every thing's nothing, without you
I wait here forever just to,
To see you smile'
Cause it's true
I am nothing without you

Through it all
I've made my mistakes
I'll stumble, and fall
But I mean these words

I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart, and soul
I'll hold on to this moment, you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

Thoughts read unspoken
Forever, and now
And pieces of memories
Fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so

I won't let this go'
Cause it's true
I am nothing without you

On the streets, where I walked alone
With nowhere to goHave come to an end

I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart, and soul
I'll hold on to this moment, you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

In front of you're eyes
It falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of you're eyesIt falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find

What you will find
What you will find
What you will find
what you will find

I don't want this moment
To ever end
Where everything's nothing, without you

I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart, and soul
I'll hold on to this moment, you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart, and soul
I'll hold on to this moment, you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

was this the day, i got to remember those times i had.

with you singing under the void deck after school last year. damn~ that means alot. and the song.

(story of how i liked the song)

every night, i wasted batteries. listening to my sick mp3. i fall asleep after a song or two, then i realised, my mp3 beside me, i just grab the ear plug and plug in. i dont know why i plug in. then the time i plug in, this particular song came to the chorus part. then i played the song over again. over and over again, till now.

the song tittled: with me.

i wasnt quite okay with my school surroundings.
i never thought. id will find a friend like you
i never felt like before
i never sing with a friend like i never did with you.
i only see you smile from pictures.
or ill never see you smile like you did. cause we meet rarely.
but.
i remember, that graduation night i walked beside you and said something.
on how we used to, to talk about fathiah.
we use to meet at the usual place after school.
(all of these make me so emotional)
im now playing the song while typing these
i know.
that things have changed since then.

song: Yellow Submarine
by: The Beatles
year published: 1962
influence by: my untie

damn it. i want many things. well, i just found out little bastard is sometimes cute. ill post a video later. (in the video) she get mad when the microphone didnt turn up. and the hand, is my hand. i disturb her.

i'll get an award and im in the top 10. teacher asked whether my parents wanna come. i said no. im not proud on getting top 10 or whatever, im just feeling satisfy with myself. i knew my parents wouldnt come to see 'their' child getting an award walking on the stage. i felt down myself. crying. did my parents work too much and left their child school updates behind? what they wanted more.
im just like a child from the children who grew up with no parents.
mum just got home, and i wanna publish this and close the window, i dont want she to see my personal things without my permission.
bye.

went jalan raye today. did alot of things today. the best house, ashikin. friend put in two asam in my cocktail. i took it and put it back to the big bowl of the cocktail. and laugh. and then.yan, put one strange lime green asam to the kuah soto. style~~ i get inspired by the cat face. its like soooo, perfect. shes lying on my thighs. and i bet she went dizzy as the flash captured her picture. shes my friend cat. and also went to my enemys house today. i was like wooo~ this is your house? i still remember, p.e. we played scoccer street, ten girls.
five vs five : wearing slash vs. not wearing slash. she wanna act terror. kick the small ball like a cripple. i scored one. she scored none. you dont have skills, say it. dont try to act like you have. cause you'll never.

p/s:
chinese-eyes. satu bulan da tak jumpe. upcomming 5 months.
still loving you; nadd.

selamat hari raye maaf zahir dan batin,

kecuali orang itu yang curi telepon bimbitku.

kepada pencuri: langkahlah mayat aku jika engkau hendak mengembalikannya
informasi anda: nadiah khalid ialah cucu nenek yang pertama untuk hasilkan ketupat dibuat sendiri(:
hari 131007: nadiah di malaysia tolong nenek.
untuk, david haziq: 101007, ahaha.
untuk maisawah: last long with zulll.
untuk amani: aku rindu kau maot.
untuk liyana: kau semakin lawa.
untuk syuhada: aku cinte kau.

selamat hari raya dari nadiah, yang maha bising.

does stealing makes you feel good? base on first tought, most of the human minds says yes. but does it get any better? you'll will go around stealing again after stealing once. because you cant get enough. i steal before, and then i want to steal again. its true, it dont get any better until im done. i rather use phone cards then handphones.

using handphones are big disadvantages to me. first, you need to pay. second, if you lost them, you cant get another one. third, its more easier to prank call people using phone cards. (: fourth, you not need to call your parents allways. fifth, you can allways renew (buy) another phone card after another. theres no need to hide, shame.

i wish i could. i wish i could find the one who stole the phone. then slit a pointy sharp 8cm long, radius of 3cm thick to the culprit right and left arm. then use 19 safety pin to pin the mouth. shave the skin. threaten the person like i never before. but im okayy with it.

when any feelings come, or go or anything that made me feel uneasy, i'll just need to sing if i have to, i'll just need to hear and watch a bottle of All The Same - Sick Puppies. the only way to heal by just listening to something that i think really heals my heart. okayy, i dont know what i talking. i'll have the power if i have skill then i'll have the will. no power, no will.
thats is all.

i get angry easily when people steal my money because they have lost theirs and want to blame me taking it. so what if its on my bed with your wallet on top?
you stupid?! then the money lost blame me.
bodo. it wasnt me. it wasnt me. it wasnt me.
you took my $20 last month without permission.
i kept quiet. i kept quiet alot of times. the when i ask you whether you got take my money you said no. you should really know, your'e a disloyal child. i detest you.
father wanna put you in the girls home. but grandmother objected.
you stole $400 from father money box and admit it after 5 months.
you got your stupid boyfriend that dosen't help at all. even though your'e with him for 6 years or whatever, but when comes to marriage, you people only last less than a month.
your 1 year relationship dosent worth la. you think your house is a hotel?
can come home at 3 in the morning?
as a sister, i hated you much. now is the fasting month i cant do much i only can type. im telling you, go away. go stay another house, go far far away. and stop wearing my jeans and clothes. im not over with you ass. dont make up my mind for me to tell your deepest secret.
you fcuking asshole. go away from my parents. you are not a sister to me, a stranger. so if you die, we wont see you.

me and music

today. was the first day of fasting month thats all.
puase, puase.

today. i scolded my indian co-form teacher.
" oi! mrs sammy! drink drink only ar! bodo, dont pity ah?! " -aku slack(:

i felt like eating this afternoon, but he took me out to study.
-a trip to the library.

my mom never work, and she is driving me nuts.
"nadiah! mop the floor! clean your stuff! "

and now, i want hari raya.
aku desperate nak $$

took my cat out from the drain.
meow meow meow~

when music accompany you around the school.
and, i dont get caught.

a total student.
6cm high socks above ankle.

i pulled my hair like going to be bold.( in maths lesson )
because maths do kill you.

so, remember about the times i was crazy about oldies? now no more. so oldies are inthe years like, okayy i dont know how to say. im only telling you that im in love with older song today. omg. whats with me. you know the old old old old years where they create music with guitars all but with a slack voice. for me nice ah. i sot.

if you were to find me swinging my head and move like little mary left to right to left and so on, thats nadd. you know, i cut my hair, if after bathing i look like a butch. if its dried up, i looked like mods. whatt only. and i wanna meet Linda Scott soul. im her fan.

oh linda oh linda. da tada da da da da tada... lets swing people.

the day where i feel in love
( love love love love)
with the year 1962
- with
Linda Scott.

96.8 FM

so. i was just browsing the dictionary that consists of 1,000,000,000GB. also, includes 27 alphabets and 9 single digit numbers. abc 123. you know the letter 'r'. r is for radio. ah okay. that gives me an idea to talk about radio for today. just imagine people dont hear to songs, but they listen to radio. its actually not bad. as for me. theres many to talk about. i dont know what im talking, but let just continue with whats happening around the radio.

Singapore. a multi-cultural country(island) have 12 radio stations. if you dont know what the hell is radio stations, go to somewhere that got sand, then burry your head or separate a connected antenna and poke it in your ear both ear, and from there, you'll be able to read messages(sms) from the president to a girl in geylang or even a message from little miss bodo or miss swan. cool stuff. and i cut the subject and continue. there is 12 radio stations in Singapore.

have you people heard of this 96.8FM? once you get in that radio station, try to follow what they're saying as in, your an echo.
you know i tried that before. i thought it was the coolest thing to do. after following what they're saying, i felt like a dark girl wearing sari, even though i tried very hard to echo.

thats for today, all for one word, radio.

okayy.
i love teachers day. i love, her, her, her, her, her, her and him and meow.
i am tired, lazy, happy, sad, listening to a song.
today is, 4th of september. is three months. no-one birthday.
i wanted, a handphone, another new jeans, more tops, not to be in (TAF).
i went to, ntuc, sheng shiong, a shop nearby.
i did, my house work, kiss my cat, and kiss you.
and now i am offically comparing my, " ( thethethe nadd pose ) " ok. alittle bit difference, but still. very very very original. this is my shortest post this month.

okayy its done.
(sudah habes)