There is no other way.

Hi to all reading this. Mt father asked me to check if the white computer have internet connection. I check and, the computer have internet connection. I did'nt know wat to do so I searched for malay songs. I founded that, my white computer have tons of malay songs. I hear this songs that makes me feel some kind of different. I have no other way to escape from the song so I hear them. It was so touched that I.... sorry, can't describe my feeling.

On monday I think I'll be going Ice Skating with E Ching and Wei San. Can't wait!
On tuesday will be a trip to neoprint shop at Jurong East.

Back to the topic about the song. The song was Jiwang. This is the first time I felt like this.
The song named ''Permaisuri'' by Data. Sorry to Maisarah, I'm addict to it allready. This song reflect on my days with my ex.
Erti cinta.
-Cinta itu unik.
-Cinta tidak boleh dibeli dengan wang. *Love is priceless*
-Cinta , cinta yg sejati ialah cinta yg datang tanpa memaksa seseorang.
-Cinta tidak boleh bercakap. * having difficulties expressing feelings*
-Cinta itu buta. *Love is blind*
-Cintalah tuhan, keluarga, rakan.*Love your friends, etc..*
-Cintalah kekasih.* Love your lover*

Inilah yg ku faham dari lagu ''Permaisuri''.
Terimah Kasih . Thankyou.

A heart-breaking experience.

I was patched with my ex, last two week.
But then .. something happened. This happened in habbo, Monday 19/6/06 4:09PM
I have experience a heart - breaking moment. Its was strange my eyes started to grow tears.
He ignored me.He have many other girls. He never thought of having only one to be in his heart.
I went everwhere he goes. He was with another girl. Even my friend says too.
What is that you call your true love? I started to asked him amny questions. He never replied.
Then I wrote ... ( in habbo )
U tk pernah sayangkan I.
U tk pernah cintakan I.
U tk pernah sukekan I.
U tk pernah ....

Klw u tk nak layan I , I nak break ngan u skrg.

Then, he never replied, u see having to many girls is not easy.
After 10 minutes, he replied " k. "
I'll short the story.
Hes making me grow tears. I and my watery eyes looking on the computer. He replied ...
sorry It's too sad to continue.

See me online in msn if ur curious.. tell me to continue.... I will...
My msn : lord_of_love482@hotmail.com

Does people understands me ?

Hi. Today nothing much to do so im writing a post. Here's my adventure from Saturday to Monday night.

_- Saturday-_

I got to go a wedding ceremony at Jurong Point near there. I saw the English men family and this malay women. I was shocked when my mother said that we are gonna stay here till night, I was like what the hell ! I straight away asked my father for money and went back home and when i went back home turned on the computer and as pernormal I was smsing Raffiq.

_-Sunday-_

What the fuck! I woke up at 5:45 a.m. getting ready to go Malaysia to Bukit Ramun. I wake up bathe and go metting point my grandmoms house. Grandmom house was packed with the whole family as attandance is compulsary. I was sleeping likea rat in my fathers car when on the way to Malaysia. Again to the meeting point at my Grandfathers house. His house was a teres house. I eat breakfast there, as I was damn hungry. Off..Off.. We go... We are now at the dunnoe where Plaza Tol. And then I sleep again and realise it was past 3 hours. I donnoe where the place was .
I sleep again and realised the car stopped as we are at the Bukit Ramun.
Bukit Ramun was used to be a very hot place when comes to noon and soon after. But heng! It rain. YaY! Tge place was damn crowded .... Suddenly while I was sitting on the floor my auntie asked me to take out something from the car. She told me that the car was unlocked. I wear my shoe and te floor was silppery. I was half way falling when the friction is produced. The car back wiper supported my cheek as it poked my cheek I was shouting my my heart but not in the world. Only god knoes. Bullshit man .. we went home and sleep, ouh I forgot before we left there I salam many people and the gave me money. I counted and the total I found was
Rm = 36 and $$ = 7 ( What the hell man! )
at least i got something ...
I checked my handphone and receive 2 messeges from Raffiq. That time was 11:30pm.
I replied and heres how the story goes.

I typed >> Hi.
He typed >>> Asl u tk reply my msg..?
I typed >> U slm tk reply adn slm I nak bilang you yg I besok tk de kat s'pore tapi u tak reply
so I tk bilang u la.
He typed >>> Ouh.

kite pendekkan cerite aitess..

I typed >> U mate I dah mcm glue ar..
He typed >>> k.la u gi tdo.
I typed >> k bye bye take care! muackz!( i wrote this for fun )
He typed >>> Muckz! luv u.

Hey I was'nt expecting that to happend but it really happened.
That's the end of the story ('' ,) The End.

Korean Madness.

Hi today i got nothing to say. You bored? I knew some of you were bored at home. But whatever
it is i founded a video that can laugh your heads ofF... like mine. So enjoy the show.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R4cQ3BoHFas

**DANGER , PLEASE STAND BY TO FALL OF YOUR SEAT. SPOT THE LAUGH **

Read and understand.

It was afternoon, i had no work ro do so i made this. please read deeply and understand.

" Bekas cinta ku pada mu masih kekal dari dulu. Dan ku sekarang dalam keadaan sunyi dan sepi, ku hanya meminta mu menjadi milik ku sehidup mati. "
" kini kau tolak tangan ku, kerana kau ingatkan aku akan buat kesalahan yang sama. Tetapi sebernarnya aku mahu sesuatu dari mu. aku sekarang insaf untuk mendapatkan mu. Aku mahu kau fikir kan perasaan ku, adakah sekali pun engkau bertanya kepadaku tentang hati ku yg berkali-kali terluka daripada mu. Aku hanya meminta kau untuk paham kan perrasaan ku ini."
" Harapan untuk mu daripada ku tinggi sekali. Aku tidak membilang kau kerana kau tahu bahawa kau yakin yang aku akan tidak terpikat dengan mu. Tetapi sekarang, semasa aku berjalan di daerah mu, kau membuat ku diketawakan di hadapan rakan ku yang lain. Ku berasa malu terhadap mu dan rakan - rakan ku. Sekarang aku mula benci pada mu tetapi..kau sekarang meminta maaf kepada ku dan meminta ku menjadi milik mu. Aku tolak kerana mu, dan aku tidak akan memaaf kan kau . Tidak usah lah kau menbawa ku bunga untuk meminta maaf. kerana dahulu aku dengan ikhlasnya dengan dendam mu itu. Aku kini tidak akan maafkan mu ."

peace out...

Update.

Today as usual got my religion class at 8 in the morning. And ended up at 10.15. Mostly Siti Hanisah and Fateh was there but today they were not. Fateh was going out . And I don't know what about Hanisah , wah thaught she was stuck in the toliet bowl. Some girls behind was laughing like a '' Cik Pon '' when others were doing their work.
Then after my religion class I went home and perpare to go JP to buy something. Then I and my family go jemputan. The jemputan was at Bukit Panjang block 200+. It was held under a block.

Here's the part comes...
I reach there and stand in the middle of the red carpet like a stupid girl. The stupid thing was that there was no empty seat so we stand at the back. Then I said " nie orang eh.. da makan sedap-sedap tak tau nak balik. kirekan orang datang tak tau nak balik" . I was right I think. We waited 15 minutes just to wait for just a stupid seat. There were many boi's as they were helping to wash the plates i think. 10 minutes past before i seat, I saw a boy . He was dressed in smart clothes, he was so neat until i get attracted to him.
I was saying " Alamak cute nyer lelaki nie. Geram nyer aku!!! "
But then when I started to stand I realised that I was taller than him. Oh well, what to do with my height... haizz. But I allways know that there's only one man whom I liked. No matter what happens I'm not gonna change my mind about him. ((:

About Raffiq.
Raffiq was a nice man but need to learn to low down the voice.
We have'nt contact each other for 2 or 3 weeks allready, so I don't know ... he may be dead by now. ( hope so )

About Khairul.
He was my senior. He was kind, caring , helpful and many more.
He said to me that he was my friend. I was soo touched by his every single words that he said.
He was a very precious friend of mine. I ... I ... I can't express my feelings about him. I don;t konw how to make him see that i appericiate his kindness to me.
He was one of my precious, special and everlasting friend. ('',)

hi to all..

Hi people what are u doing...
I'm bored so i searched the lyrics for the song tiger lily. then i sang along with the song and suddenly thought of something .. the lyrics ment something to me i did'nt knew what it was all about. so what i do was i kept listening to the song. more then 10 times a day.. please do not think im crazy..i realy do not understand what it means.

and i gtg bubbhyes..
*Please leave a dropby at my tag!*

Wat the hell..

Today english paper. I was feeling happy and good for english paper 1. Then for paper 2 i started to feel that my eyes are watery. And I realise tha t i'm sick . i can't concentrate on my paper. The hall was soo stuffy and hot like no air.

Then when going home i felt that my eyes is dropping out of my eyes . I went straight home and take panadol and went to sleep. at 3 afternoon, I was ok im not sick then when i slept for another hours i woke up and im sick .

The decrease of my degree is 38.3 to 37.9.
I hope to go to school tommrow for my maths paper . I do not wish to be one of the absentees in my class.

Signing out..

Hie..

Hello people . This post was to be typed yesterday. Nevermind today I write 1 post. This post was in malay language. Well... Please enjoy.

Title:
Cintaku tidak tercapai. ( this was continued with the last week ones. Abit different )

Aku menjumpaimu.
Aku selalu gembira apabila melihat namamu.
Aku tidak sedari yang aku melupai sesutu.
Suatu hari, engkau memintak nombor telefon ku.
Aku pula memberinya kepada mu.
Aku tahu yang aku mengharapkan satu.

Selepas itu kamu mahu menjumpai ku.
Aku tidak mahu kerana aku malu.
Tetapi kata-kata mu yang berbunga itu, kelihatan memaksai ku.
Aku pun segera menjumpai mu.
Engkau mengikut kemana sahaja aku pergi.
Aku membuat tidak tahu kepada mu.
Engkau pula sudah naik darah .
Dan memekik namaku tetapi aku berbuat bodoh kepada mu.

Dan sepanjang hari itu,
aku menyesal kerana membuang peluang emasku.
Aku harap aku boleh berdepan dengan mu sekali lagi.

Selepas seminggu, aku bermula bercakap di telefon dengan engkau dan kawan 2 mu.
Semua ada cerita pada hari itu.
Aku meng******** yang kau akan menjadi ***** ku suatu hari.
Tetapi nasibku yang malang itu musnah.
Kau telah meminta nombor telefon bimbit kawan ku yang lebih ****** daripada ku.
Itu bermaksud yang engkau tiada ******* untuk ku.
Aku kecewa.

Kau kelihatan tiada perasaan.
Tetapi adakah engkau memikirkan perrasaan ku sepanjang hari?
Tanyalah diri mu sekali lagi.

Its true.

( language malay )

Ini sebuah cerita yang pendek tetapi benar.

Aku menjumpai mu.
kamu mahu berkenalan dengan ku.
aku gembira dapat menjumpai lelaki macam mu.

Suatu hari kamu mahu melihat wajah ku.
aku berasa malu , tetapi merasakan yang kau telah memaksai ku.
aku terpaksa pergi menjumpaimu.
aku berjumpa mu tetapi aku tidak hendak memangil mu
sesudah aku katakan yang aku malu.

Kawan mu menjerit nama ku ,
Aku duduk diam , membuat tidak tahu
kamu mengikut aku kemana sahaja aku pergi, pada hari itu

Aku berfikir yang lelaki harus lebih berani daripada parempuan.
tetapi benarkah itu..?
mulai engkau pulagng hari itu, aku berasa sedih
kerna aku tidak dapat melihat wajah mu yang sebernanya pada hari itu.

Aku kesal.
aku harap aku dapat memjumpai mu sekali lagi.
dan aku tidak akan membuang paluang itu.
Kerna aku mencintaimu dan terpikat dengan mu.

Ska.

today i did nothing only surfing songs..
I decided to change my song bat country to ' A message to you rudy '
I am a Beginner Ska lovers..

I miss HIM, I miss HIM
I miss HIM, I miss HIM
I miss HIM, I miss HIM
I miss HIM, I miss HIM

I hearts HIM, I hearts HIM
I hearts HIM, I hearts HIM
I hearts HIM, I hearts HIM
I hearts HIM, I hearts HIM

I love HIM, I love HIM
I love HIM, I love HIM
I love HIM, I love HIM
I love HIM, I love HIM

Damn how long am I gonna wait..??

Damn wat the hell.

Todae I've got nothing but went NOT straight home go to mama shop. I have to meet a STRANGER whom i not know . i got this diesease *MALU* that is in malay .if in english means SHAME u know what i mean ... he started to follow us everywhere we go
in that time i was going to the mama shop buying a drink when 2 stranger whom i guess is the man RAFFIQ and AKAM . these 2 man is each others best friend. i started to panic cause i don noe wat to do.

Raffiq and Akam started to be mad and shouted foul words . ex. butoh and bitch
that time im making the decaying shit of me . but wat a waste of time.
I thought man should be brave than woman then i realise that i was wrong.
i told him im afraid but it seems to be forcing me .
I hope to see them by the road side .
And meet one another .

I don noe wat to say.

Erm... hi to guys out there reading my post .
Hmm.. today normal got madrasah boring sia
the lame madrasah made me so bored
.....
then at 9:32pm i went to play the com.and playing habbo.. and listen to Hafiz As'sari songs
it was damn cool i even can't take it out of my ears he also got a blog cool huh.
so visitors out there wanna listen hi his songs add me at msn
lord_of_love482@hotmail.comyou'ill get all the instructions from me
Terms And Conditions Apply

ybe erm... see you guys there..
(sorry not much to talk...)

The song.

Today i added a very ANTIQUE song ..
for me this song is ok...it reminds me of my ex..
trying not to think about my ex.

and got raining seyy just now and lighting strikes..
and heng my cat is home if not im soo a dead meat.!
and now still raining nvr stop...

and the most loneyiest day of my life....
lalalaalalalalaa
im singing..

so bubbhyezz

and the most lonelyiest day of my life........

taking off my shoes.

now im at my own skool computer lab and now maisarah is acting to crawl on the wall and she is laughing like a witch.....you noe shes like that.
and she started to laughing again like a witch... and ...
Zuhri is suddenly jumped off a chair and laugh like a crazy GORILLA.
fazli is now calling maisarah...
mawaddah is now concentrating to her task by mdm hajjar..
umairah is now thinking very hard....
nadirah is now playing a a scobby doo game...
and at amiruls place is now sourrounded by gerls...
and al FATAH is now walking like a freaking boy around ther computer lab...

AND ZEE HAIR IS GOING TO MELT MY EYES AS
IT MAKE MY EYES MELTING.!!!!

MSG: ZEE PLS DO SUMTINHG TO YOUR HAIR..

Lagu Perangkap cinta

Today again not in school when my 2 ulcers became more worse than the other day.Again i got a call from my own school...
I 'm now listening to the song Perangkap cinta ( recording ) by my best friend ( a boy ) he said to listen to the song if i missed him and i did. here is the lyrics of the song Perangkap cinta.


Perangkap cinta:

Setahun sudah ku menunggu dirimu
Akhirnya kau menjadi milikku
Sukarnya untuk ku melupakan mu
Kerana kau ku cintai selalu

Tapi sayang kehadiran kekasih lama mu
Dataang kembali mengenang cinta dahulu

Kenapa ini semua harus berlaku
Apakah ini semua kerna diriku
Sedangkan aku cuma watak dalam percintaan
Tak sanggup aku melupakan mu

Kau ibarat perangkap di tengah lautan
Tak tahu mana arah untuk kau menuju

Andai kau pinta untuk melepaskan mu
Kau kata aku turutkan
Jika ini suatu pengajaran di dalam percintaan.....

I'm not in school.

Today im not in school b'cause i got a dizzy head and 2 ulcers in my mouth. one in my tongue and one on my cheek. the ulcers in my mouth is driving me nuts difficult to brush my teeth.

then about 11:10am i have a call from my school asking me that why i never came to school todae . Telling them i do not dare to come to school b'cause my own form teachers told me that if i got ulcers in my mouth do not come to school.
At home so bored writing a post and then lie on my bed to rest it is so damn bored at home im alone nobody at home only me and myself .im now listening to Sugar we're falling down by Fall out boy

People reading my post please tag.
I wanna see comments
and by the way was school today good?

Falling apart.

hmm.. wondering what's gonna happen to me todae
ok let's talk about yesterday ...
i amani maisarah lyiana go to JEL to meet people.

not wondering he looked like a rotten egg and humpty dumpty
he scare me away and my friends
straight away go to 3 rd level for safety.
his face right if you all see can vomit hair and blood
dier perasan..nyer orang

we ran to safe our lives
running..
and safe to 3 rd level.
im not gonna meet him ever in my life ..
and i leave him alone...
i hate you ! get outta my life.......
go and die to _ _ _ _ _ _.

Todays day was a tiring day especially in school.
in school i have to hear " SHARAHAN " from miss chan..
all the words she talked it makes my eardrum fall of my ear..
but no doubt still going to JLP
_________
I love my ***** ( * toot * )
he is the only one who can understand me...
today not much to talk but im not gonna give up on chasing my studies in school
sorry you all if i write very short coze my dae was a very boring day....
i appologise for this AGAIN.
sorry a thousand times...
......so i talk to somebody that i ment to be in my life....
cause i wrote a ransom letter....

Yesterday...
was assembly and the r assembly was intersting..
it was entitled " Am I in love ? "
First i felt that this have something to do with most of us there..
when i see the actress acting on the middle part of the story my eyes went watery
cause it reflect on my p5 in class .

last year i wrote love poems that i thought to make this person realise that i love him for 2 years.
he threw away the paper. he don't appriciate my poems.
i get embrassed by most of my friend then i tried to stop it but it kept
stepping on my head
i got this SHY vyrus to him only..
when he was sitting beside me i tried to concentrate on wat im doing but i failed
he went away.
this was the experience..
i like him soo much until i have band 4344 on my studies that made me realise
how much i have been wanting him...

now i found one that i really need but
the man that i admires the most could'nt get out of my mind easily
im trying ti forget him but he stays in my mind...

I failed to get you should I let you enter
my heart again ?
It was unbeliveable.

Yesterday was such a damn boring day.
even though i went to town it was still a damn boring day.
my hubby went on holiday to malaysia. even he was on overseas he do sms amd called me .
i wonder if he cares about me . i think so cause he called me he dosent care how much he has to pay cause he cares about me.
____________
he understand my feelings and most of all he ***** me.
im konw in the world of lonelyness .
he the one that i wished for .everytime when i went to sleep i cannot sleep
and i linger what he was doing right now.
____________
A classmate you were once.
Then a gentle look at your face
As our lives engaged,
You lit my life and I allways be happy.

You're my man my mighty king,
And I'm the jewel in the crown,
You're the sun so hot and bright,
With your light reys shining down.

You're the sky and your favourite coloue is blue,
And I'm the white clouds in your chest,
I'm the rivr clean and pure.
Unlike the rest with the brownish dirty colour.

You're th mountain huge and high,
And I wrote your name in the sky,
But the wind blew it away.
I wrote your mane in the sand,
But the waves washes it away.
I wrote your name in my heart ,
It will forever stay.

continuing

todae again was a bad dae coze i slam my own lovely handphone on the wall until it break.
telling me don't noe wat to do.
i told him that if i see this again i'll kill myself or wart u always say,
commisuicide.
he told he that if i runnaway he'll come with me
and if i'm alone he'll be with me.
he told me things .
he told me not to go away and leave him alone.
he told me do not commisuicide as he'll miss me .If
i go and die he also followed me everywhere i go
he'll come with me it seems to make me think twice
and he said " U jgn tinggal kn i nnti mlm i tk leh tido everydae I meraung psl kehilangan u ."
that made me realise how important am i to him.
thinking twice ,
not to commisuicide.
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Its my dae..

I love my dae..
todae my....that one rite .
i talk to my ( her**) we talk to each other ...veddy long time
we talk together like half an hour.
we told each other things that i have experience and what i have not
experience he knew that im a p6 and he knew what i felt and ....
to many still im gonna talk about him .
he made me happy at the end of the day.
he mademe laugh everyday
all i need is him no body else..
a tight relationship.
not to let you go
remember you said it to me i want to live and die together with you.
i count on you.
your the only one .
when i'm bored i will call you.
don stop talking to me coz i'll not sleep im the night.
i dream about you every single night
"WITHOUT YOU I'M NOT BE ABLE TO BREATHE LIKE A NORMAL PERSON AGAIN , LIKE I ALWAYS DO."

What the hell.

Todae after school i decided to meet someone whom is a stranger.
I and my friends went to Jurong East Library to see ther image..of ther face ( her/his? )
he / she called me and tell me tjhat he/ she allready there that person is from sengkang
feeling very fishy but i have no prove to tell.
he/she was late then i became angry!
that person havent top up his prepaid card and i need to wait and what the hell
he told me that he went to JEL .adn he said that he wore a brown jacket but when i tarwaf one whole library "lobang hidong dier i " cannort see so u noe what the hell!
but still i have to wait...
------------------
i realise that u made me angry but i still don care
u made my blood went up but i still don care..
u don wan to meet me and i still again DON CARE!!!
if one dae i realise that one day u need me
than it depends on what your mouth is gonna say to me !
if the words make me happy ..
on that dae than i have no choice to think twice.
and see what what is my decision.
if you don care about me than GET LOST
and i suppose to leave you......
-----------------
Good bye my lover ,
Good bye my friend,
I'll be the one...
I'll be the one for you.......
-----------------
felling lonely at night..
nobody is here.
feeling alittle furry
feeling scared..
and i checked it out
it was my cat
( black mother )
she's cute little kittie ...
still i need you by my side
your the one..
( my ****** )

Why?

todae day, was a tiring dae is actually ...
my friend went to nur hanisah's house to do our project her house was big and got a lot of free space .it was fun there wif her mother...
her mother did'nt say anything..
.......... ( ther boring part...)
at 3:30 we went have to go home .
saying good bie then i realise that my left leg socks was missing searching and searching then
seeing that i saw another lonely socks without a partner..
making fool of my self infront of everybody...( so paisey...)
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I started to realise that i have missed somebody ...
im just waiting for her* to call just to say I ........( censored)
not telling my friends .....that im feeling unhappi..
abt one person coze later...my friend say "lol u horgh...u this ,that.."
blag blag blah ( pet potting)
not closing their mouth....
that is not the one i wished for...
--------------------------------
then at 6pm i with my friend went to J.L.P. ( Jurong Lake Park)
it was fun as 70% of the people there were watching us playing ther '' CIRCUMFERENCE''
we called that circumference coze it was made from a circle...
then my wish come true ...
somebody call me and that was my ___ ( censored )
im verry happy as i can hear her* voice again without
*HER* voice i' cant live ani longer *SHE'S*
the one i always need for everything..
okokokok lar
he made me happy
he made my dae'
he made me smile
and forever i stay...